Not sure what I'm doing on here. Guess I need some advice.
So, I've got female genitals. Yup.
I'm not sure what I identify as. Getting mistaken for a male gives me a confidence boost. My brother's friends call me a male nickname. A neighborhood kid asked me what my name was. He looked pretty damn confused. He didn't know why I (a dude) resembled an awkward girl from a few years back.
People are pissed that I'm dressing and acting like a boy. My grandmother says I'm an attention-seeking ->-bleeped-<-. My aunt says I'm trying to piss off everybody. My mom pleads that I'm a "beautiful girl."
I can't do this anymore. I feel like a giraffe in girl's clothes. Luckily I've got a thin guy's frame - tall (5'9"), long arms, legs, narrow hips, big nose. But I'm only 14. I'm scared that puberty's going to kick in and give me boobs or some ->-bleeped-<-.
I'm really dysphoric when it comes to periods. Can't stand asking for supplies, etc. I also hate my skinny arms. Chicken-thin. Skinny for even a girl. I hate them so much.
I need help. There's no one in my family to talk to - they're all either religious or reluctant or just plain skeptical. I wish I had been born a boy. Could've saved me from confusion and anger and depression.
