Hello, I'm Charlotte

[charlotte15]

Hello

Sorry I forgot to post my presentation before posting my first message on https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,186337.msg1658907.html#msg1658907  but nothing copy and paste can't fix.

My name is Charlotte, I'm 36 years old, and I work as a statistician in Washington DC. Physically, I'm 5.9, white, with jet black hair at armpit length.

These last few years, while I was making my mind about what kind of body I wanted, I got most of my facial hair removed. I still have to pluck a few spare hairs with pliers, about 20 mins every 2 weeks, but it's ok as I don't have to shave anymore. I was something I have wanted to do forever. It made me really happy. I hope I can fix the remaining few hairs in DC!

Last year I finally made my mind and started HRT in october 2014. Now at 6 months I'm already blessed with nice A cups and a decent butt. I like my tits and my new me more than I could ever have imagined, so much that it made me seriously consider my future.

At the moment I'm obsessed with the idea of FFS. I see that as the only real way out, even if I look androgynous.

I know pain and surgery - due to a bad accident in my twenties, I have had more sugeries on my limbs than I can count on both hands. I'm ok now, and being cut open is not frightening. I'm afraid of side effects and bad surprises.

So I posted a message on the FFS forum to ask personal questions.

What I really fear is the small mishaps - lack of sensation in part of my face, scars painful to the touch, scars that are hard to hide, this kind of stuff. I know that too well. I have such things at different spots on body, and I have learnt to tolerate it the best I can, to hide it well, but it is still traumatizing. I'm not sure I'm ready to repeat the experience, especially when we are talking about the face. Cosmetic surgery may not be like fixing shattered bones, but I'm really afraid of having the same stuff happen on my face.

I'm trying to balance this fear with the fear of living my remaining years unhappy.

All I want is happiness, and that's all I wish for everyone too.

[Cindy]

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Take your time with FFS and see how your face changes on HRT. There are changes to fat distribution and muscular changes so don't rush in just yet, maybe?

Welcome Hon

[V M]

Hi Charlotte 

Welcome to Susan's    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

[Mariah]

Hi Charlotte, Welcome to Susan's. I agree with Cindy don't rush surgery at this point tell HRT has had more time to work. I'm amazed at how my face looks now on just over 6 and half months of HRT. It can really make a difference, but fears regarding any surgery are normal to. I look forward to seeing you around the site. Hugs and good luck
Mariah

[Rachel]

Welcome to Susan's Place.

I too am very leery of FFS. I read the posts and look at the pics  and I can feel their pain.

My license pic and my face look very different. I have been on HRT for 22 months. I purchased something today and had to show my drivers license. The guy looked at my license and me and said it does not look like you. My face has softened a lot. I still have a chin that is a little square and a little bit of brow bossing and MPB.

I look forward to seeing you around the site.

[Tessa James]

Welcome Charlotte,

I spent 33 years in surgery as a nurse anesthetist and consider your concerns to be warranted.  There are risks and not everyone gets what they expect.  Still we have some super great examples of people here who love their new looks and are very happy about the confidence it provides.  Such a unique and personal journey.  I also agree with my sisters that giving HRT a longer opportunity to makes changes is reasonable too.  Choices are so good to have!

[mrs izzy]

charlotte15
Welcome to Susan's Family
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Hugs

[charlotte15]

Cindy, V, Mariah, Cynthia, Tessa, Izzy - thanks a lot for the kind and understanding words. Reading your replies warms my heart.

Cindy -- I did check the links and I'll make sure to respect the TOS 

Mariah -- It's funny to think we started at about the same time!! And I though my results were great? You just look totally stunning! May I ask if the hourglass shape is there yet? (Not for me)

Thanks to all y'all for your concerns. I do not want to rush anything. Maybe I should have explained myself a little more. If anything, I'm usually too slow in my decisions, but I need to have a plan in my head, a hope. HRT has indeed already made miracles, even at 6 months - more on the boobs than on the face, but everything will come in due time.

I plan to wait at least 1 year for FFS. Then, if I decide to do it, I will have carefully thought about the what, the where, and the who - and the budget, but the most important thing is the "what", being clear on what I want to do, and what to expect.

Every journey is indeed unique. For me, it's just a bit fuzzy because I still have some fears and I'm not sure on what to expect because I've trust issues due to my past experiences with healthcare. I take everything with a pinch of salt.

I mean, I was not expecting A cups in 6 months, especially since my closest relative barely has As - more like AAs. At this same pace, it will be B cups for this summer. That by itself is a miracle, and it made me think about the future.

Today I was looking at the cherry trees blossom and the blue sky,  thinking: "yes, I could be happy". Being able to say that without second thoughts is in and by itself another miracle. I'm allowing myself hope.

What had happened? I had just read about mmmmm personal experience who explained she had the same fears about the scar, but the scar has become almost invisible, and that upper face work was very very important and I should really consider it. These simple words just brightened my day.

I hope I can be as helpful to those who have fears and issues about breast development or HRT. Now I'm gonna grab the popcorn and read some more!!

[Devlyn]

Hi Charlotte, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm from Boston. You'll meet lots of nice people here on the site, I'll be seeing you around the forums!

Hugs, Devlyn

[katrinaw]

Hi Charlotte, welcome 

I would certainly wait a little to see what Magic HRT can do, however it does depend on the damage T may have done....
I certainly would consider FFS or some FS, but would also be part of fixing up skin damage due to sun and age... It would have to be a financial decision based on cost and time out of circulation... Tough one!
Unfortunately for me I'm a bit of a perfectionist... 

Good luck and big Welcome

L Katy 

[Mariah]

Cindy, V, Mariah, Cynthia, Tessa, Izzy - thanks a lot for the kind and understanding words. Reading your replies warms my heart.

Cindy -- I did check the links and I'll make sure to respect the TOS 

Mariah -- It's funny to think we started at about the same time!! And I though my results were great? You just look totally stunning! May I ask if the hourglass shape is there yet? (Not for me)

Thanks to all y'all for your concerns. I do not want to rush anything. Maybe I should have explained myself a little more. If anything, I'm usually too slow in my decisions, but I need to have a plan in my head, a hope. HRT has indeed already made miracles, even at 6 months - more on the boobs than on the face, but everything will come in due time.

I plan to wait at least 1 year for FFS. Then, if I decide to do it, I will have carefully thought about the what, the where, and the who - and the budget, but the most important thing is the "what", being clear on what I want to do, and what to expect.

Every journey is indeed unique. For me, it's just a bit fuzzy because I still have some fears and I'm not sure on what to expect because I've trust issues due to my past experiences with healthcare. I take everything with a pinch of salt.

I mean, I was not expecting A cups in 6 months, especially since my closest relative barely has As - more like AAs. At this same pace, it will be B cups for this summer. That by itself is a miracle, and it made me think about the future.

Today I was looking at the cherry trees blossom and the blue sky,  thinking: "yes, I could be happy". Being able to say that without second thoughts is in and by itself another miracle. I'm allowing myself hope.

What had happened? I had just read about mmmmm personal experience who explained she had the same fears about the scar, but the scar has become almost invisible, and that upper face work was very very important and I should really consider it. These simple words just brightened my day.

I hope I can be as helpful to those who have fears and issues about breast development or HRT. Now I'm gonna grab the popcorn and read some more!!

I wish the hourglass figure was there but it's not. Probably partly due to my being pretty skinny in the first place. Charlotte thank you so much for the compliment.
Mariah


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[charlotte15]

Skinny is great! That means all the fat will go to the right places on HRT. I was too, now I'm totally overeating in the hope of gaining weight in the right places. So far, it did nothing to the belly and went straight to the tits and butt 

And yes, your face looks gorgeous. It's not a compliment, just plain truth!

[gennee]

Hi Charlotte and welcome to Susan's.