I finally did it! I said F*** it! and it was awesome

[Monika the diva]

I must say that i had an amazing weekend this past weekend. I said "F*** it!" and it felt so awesome i sound a Boston teen who feels wicked awesome! Anyway, I feel great because i was finally able to come out and be me. It all started Friday after class. I looked great and i wanted to look my best for a birthday i was invited to for an old friend of mine. He and I have known each other since i was 9. Anyway, I had to redo my makeup and i had to ask a friend of mine to assist me with it. I wanted to make a good impression. And i did, I showed up with my make up being awesome but i was so awesome that night that i outshined my make up

Anyway, my old friend and I caught up. And he did not skip a beat. He was freaking great and his wife was awesome. So respectful and so endearing and nice. I was so happy that he and his wife and brother got to know the real me. And what made it even better was the honesty i got from my extended family.

On saturday i was invited to my cousin's birthday, she's my mom and pops goddaughter so that kind of makes her my godsister? Anyway, her mom (the cool aunt) invited me over to their home for my cousin's party, she told i don't have to be afraid and to be myself. For the first time ever i showed up in front of my extended family. Besides my cool aunt's family. I got such a cold reception from everyone else that i feel that i would've gotten a warmer reception from the KKK than my own family.

Anyway, I feel proud because despite how they acted i still love them the same. I know it will take time to adjust. Just because i am looking different on the outside to them, i still bleed red and breathe the same air as them. I am human just like them and anyone else on this planet.

But instead of complaning and bitching about myself and self loathe. I got my stuff together and made a real commitment to find happiness in this world. And my journey has only begun and i can't wait to share more stories.

But anyway in conclusion, I wasn't afraid of anyone anymore. If they like me they will like me for who i really am and on my merrits. Because honestly who am i to judge?

[sam1234]

That's a great attitude to have and congratulations on everyone's approval! Having that burden off your shoulders must feel like a new freedom.

I find it interesting how polar people's reactions can be to finding out someone they know or love is a transgender. People who seem so conservative and rigid in their gender roles are often the ones who accept the news the best. Perhaps the answer lies in how the ratio of them wanting you to be happy to their own comfort with it.

Gender identity has become more fluid in people's minds. When taken by individuals, their acceptance seems to be more positive than it is when there is a group or a law of some sort comes to vote concerning transgender rights. We aren't trying to hide anything from others, we are just being ourselves, and the people who love us understand that.

sam1234