Smal little victory

[michelle82]

Today i went to a public playground with my 3 year old daughter and despite being absolutely terrified i pulled it off without freaking out about passing.

Evem though i was dressed pretty casually dressed. I felt very feminine and i did up my hair really cute with some assecories.

I think i kinda passed, i did get some stares
But i cant be sure or not. I even had some conversations with the other parents and didnt feel any wierd vibes!

This was a important victory for me. Especially given the setting! Hopefully it will be even easier next time.

[Ms Grace]

Cool! Every little victory helps build your confidence.

[michelle82]

Cool! Every little victory helps build your confidence.

Thanks grace, it sure does! I feel like starting HRT has also given me a boost of confidence as well.

[iKate]

I still have that fear, not for nothing my 4 year old son loudly calls me daddy without any reservations.

Today though I was pulling the wagon with them in it in a store, a woman passes by, I pull it to get out of her way and by accident my daughter hits her head on a shelf.

The woman immediately says, "oh sorry! Mommy needs to give you an ouchie!" and then points at me. Needless to say I was elated. (My wife wasn't there but her older daughter was)

I also got stared at today by a guy and I thought I was being clocked, then his girlfriend or wife or whoever hit him and said, "why the f... are you staring at her?" LOL. I think I was being checked out and not in a "clocked" way.

Yeah today is really warm and I had to take off the outer layers. It's fairly obvious I have a female form - boobs, waist and some hips and butt. Face is the only thing I'm nervous, plus voice.

We pass more than we think we do.

[michelle82]

Thanks for sharing Kate, my daughter does the same thing. A few times she yelled out "daddy" when she was playing, I just had to roll with it. I'm happy that you had a good experience as well!

[michelle82]

How ironic. So what almost ended as a good day unfortunately ended with me driving home late tonight and while sitting at a red light the car next to me had a few young teenagers who decided to all look and stare at me and continue to gawk like I was some kind of freakshow.

Two steps forward one step back.

[Rachel]

Take the good.

Teenagers in the car, sorry they stared.