Today I passed and I don't know how.
I'll preface by saying I have some ideas. A few days ago someone I came out to told me that my voice was already in the gender ambiguous range and I speak and annunciate in a feminine fashion. Another told me that my physical mannerisms, how I stand and hold myself, were not masculine but not "camp" either.
I was walking my Nana's dog Penny, around the retirement village, when we ran into a new person also walking a little dog.
A little old lady walking with the aid of a stick, bent with age and as I would learn later limited vision.
Penny went to greet the woman and her dog and I did so too.
We got to talking about this and that and that she thought she recognised my dog. I told her about how my granddad used to walk her, this jogged her memory and she asked after him so I told her about his passing and how I had come up to help out.
The next thing she said surprised me: "Aren't you a good girl, looking after your Nan."
I was dressed in man-mode and had been thinking I was light years from passing in any sense. I thanked her for her compliment, not knowing what else to do and we walked together for a time talking, which is when she mentioned having limited vision.
So that's my first moment of passing. Now if only I could make my body match the rest of me... Or blind everyone! But I think I'd get in trouble for that.
Hugs,
Sarah
