Stopping hrt after 20 years?

[Danielle11746]

I am debating on stopping hrt. 

I have been on hrt for the past 20 years since the age of 18.  In the early years I took high doses of hrt, Premarin, combined with Spiro, and a shot once a week.  I got castrated about 10 years ago, and switched to taking a smaller dose of Premarin a day, combined with a random shot roughly every 2 months. 

The past year I have just felt like crap.  I gained some weight, became depressed, my skin looks like ->-bleeped-<-, and I am tired all the time.  I went to an endo and I had a borderline thyroid level.  He started me on a low dose of thyroid medication.  I took it for 2 months, I gained even more weight and my hair started thinning.  I have always been very vein and when my hair started thinning I stopped the thyroid medication, combined with the horrid things I read about thyroid replacement. 

Months later I still feel like crap and have been reading that hrt can affect the function of your thyroid.  I am passable and have no testosterone, would it hurt if I stopped hrt, what is it actually doing for me at this point?


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[Ms Grace]

You would need to discuss with an endo or doctor - but if you don't have any sex hormone (either estrogen or testosterone) you run a much higher risk of developing osteoporosis (which is why it's more prevalent in post menopausal women).

[Randi]

I think a little testosterone would help out a great deal.  Everyone needs at least some testosterone and you probably have close to zero.

[Danielle11746]

I thought about a little testosterone but it scares me.  I have zero sex drive, along with weight, energy and increased mood it seems like an easy fix.  It still scares me, it's something I fought to rid myself of from an early age.  Also the possibility of losing my looks, becoming not passable and a beard.   

[katrinaw]

Yeah, that's a tough one, kinda scary looking at T favourably after years of getting it out of us.
But T in certain low levels is good... they say

L Katy 

[Cindy]

Normal adult female T levels are 15-70 ng/L. If you are lower than that, lack of libido, depression and physical effects (facial hair growth, loss of head hair etc) can occur. See your endo.

Males BTW 300-1500 ng/L

[girlygirl002]

I'm very scared about let the testosterone do bad things in my body.. I'd rather to live my whole life taking my HRT carefully and with low dosis than living with a little testosterone in my blood..

Maybe I can look a little crazy.. but I can't live with any masculine hormones inside me..

[SonadoraXVX]

Sorry to hear that Danielle  , best advice would be what Ms. Grace said, seek a competent  Endo, who specializes specializes in trans patients, and see what the doc says. I would imagine, a little hrt won't hurt you. The thyroid thing, that is a tough one, reason I stick to what my doc says, even if its in the lower spectrum of hrt, even though I hate the poopoo of his decision. Again, sorry for your situation Danielle

[CollieLass]

I had a 2 year 'cold turkey' pause in HRT enforced on me (by losing my G.P to retirement and not being able to locate another whom would support me); and that, after 30+ years of continuous and monitored Oestrogen.
I discovered that to be a horribly damaging experience; both physically and emotionally, and took a terrible toll on my health and well-being.
It`s taken many months of care by my supportive, new G.P and endocrinologist to put right the resultant negative effects.

As for coming off HRT-support 'willingly'?.....The expression: ".....From my cold dead hand" comes to mind! 

[kelly_aus]

I'm very scared about let the testosterone do bad things in my body.. I'd rather to live my whole life taking my HRT carefully and with low dosis than living with a little testosterone in my blood..

Maybe I can look a little crazy.. but I can't live with any masculine hormones inside me..

Even cis women have a small amount of T in their systems, it's quite normal.. In fact having a T level that is too low or zero can have negative effects.

[girlygirl002]

Even cis women have a small amount of T in their systems, it's quite normal.. In fact having a T level that is too low or zero can have negative effects.

This is true Kelly, even cis women have a little amount of testosterone.. but in my own case.. a little testosterone can ruin my body.. ( hair growth..acne and other things..) because I'm very sensitive with this terrorific hormone 

[Ian68]

Normal adult female T levels are 15-70 ng/L. If you are lower than that, lack of libido, depression and physical effects (facial hair growth, loss of head hair etc) can occur. See your endo.

Males BTW 300-1500 ng/L

Bingo.  Genetic females need testosterone, too, everyone does.  Below the higher levels on the female end, you will not start growing a beard or anything like that (and even that depends on other factors).  It sounds like you're in an equivalent of early menopause, and you very likely do need some testosterone supplemementation.  Definitely talk with your endocrinologist.

Regarding HRT, you should not, should not go off of it unless directed to by (multiple) doctors.  If you have had an orchiectomy, your body does not produce sex hormones on its own, and they are needed to regulate many critical systems in the body, including metabolism, thyroid, etc. 

Take care.

[Charlotte2]

I had kinda the same experience as you. I transitioned in the late 90s and sort of went through a mid-life crisis recently: worries about passing, aging etc. So just a thought: maybe the depression is the root cause here?

Alternative you could try to come off HRT but the risk is you'll get weak bones (Osteoporosis). I've met people (trans) who've come off HRT in their 40s and ended up with that very quickly. The risk seems to be higher than for cis-women.

Either way you really need an endo who's had lots of experience with working with trans women.

[Danielle11746]

Thank you all for your responses.  Has anyone taken testosterone replacement, if so what was your experience?  I am planning on booking and apt with an endo, either to try a higher dose of thyroid medication or a very very very low dose of testosterone.

[KayXo]

I'm surprised you are taking Premarin as there are equally effective and safer (due to horse estrogens in Premarin that strongly affect coagulation) alternatives like bio-identical estradiol that can be taken orally, topically, intramuscularly, etc. Before introducing testosterone, I would personally explore whether the amount of estrogen is effective enough for you and if perhaps adding bio-identical progesterone could help. Testosterone would be my last resort due to masculinizing effects.

Progesterone, in some women, improves libido, energy levels, has a calming effect, makes skin/hair softer and nails stronger. While estradiol can have a complementary anti-depressant effect, gives energy, increases skin moisture, etc. They also usually keep breasts firm, skin supple, and slow down the ageing process. Estrogen usually keeps weight stable whereas progesterone can increase it. They can also aid in maintaining body curves.

You could discuss these options with your current doctor and get second opinions from others expert in the field.

Good luck.

[Danielle11746]

I truly don't want any more curves, as you can see in my profile photo I am pretty curvey.  Although when I started hrt at 18 I was sickly skinny, and years later that changed.  My breasts are very large and have grown a great deal in the last year after gaining a few pounds.  My rear and hips are thick also as I have had them augmented. When I was young I loved the look of Anna Nicole Smith and said "I want my body to look like that", until I woke up one day and I had and have that body.  I fear adding progesterone would add even more curves. 

[JLT1]

Hi

Check liver function.  Talk to your doctor about estrogen cream.  It's a different form of estrogen and a different delivery method. Dosage is double normal menopose dose.  Hold there until estrogen stable and adjust accordingly.

After all that,  if still feeling poorly, try thyroid medication or testosterone.

Keep us posted....

Hugs,

Jen

[Miharu Barbie]

Hi Danielle,

I'm going on 17 years of HRT myself.  Two years ago I had a similar experience of reduced energy and weight gain.  My doctor at that time also told me that I was showing signs of borderline hypothyroidism and suggested thyroid medication.  I had/have no desire what-so-ever to take thyroid medication.  My mom is on it, and her sister is too.  I'm very resistant.  My doctor agreed that medication wasn't critical but warned that if it got any worse, medication would be essential.  I did a little research and figured out what I could do on my own to support the healthy function of my thyroid without the use of medications.  Ever since, my T4 and TSH tests suggest that my thyroid is working perfectly, my energy is good, and my weight, well, cookies and stout are to blame, not my thyroid.

I hesitate to publically get into what it is that I'm doing to support my thyroid as I do not wish to run afoul of any forum rules.  If you want to PM me, I'd be happy to share with you what it is that I do to support healthy thyroid function.  As always, you should check with your doctor before EVER taking advice from the internet.  And it goes without saying, what works for me may very well not work for you.

I hope you get to feeling better.

Peace,
Miharu

[Ian68]

Thank you all for your responses.  Has anyone taken testosterone replacement, if so what was your experience?  I am planning on booking and apt with an endo, either to try a higher dose of thyroid medication or a very very very low dose of testosterone.

You might also try medical forums elsewhere because there are many cisgender women who need testosterone supplements, and you could ask them about their experiences.  You wouldn't even need to disclose that you're transgender because the situation is pretty much identical.  Glad that you're going to the doctor!  Best of luck!

[Ian68]

Why is it every time I read something like this on a trans support site I roll my eyes and think BS?

Oh, that's why, Med School.

Kelly, I appreciate where you're coming from; as a scientist, I also run into a fair amount of incorrect assumptions.  However, I don't feel that your comment was constructive at all.

@girlygirl: We all need some amount of testosterone, regardless of sex or gender - no one can simply say "I can't have testosterone in my body."  If having "female range" amounts of testosterone and estrogen in your system results in male pattern hair growth, that could very well be the result of other genetic factors.  For example, my T levels are on the higher but still within normal range for a genetic female.  I have a low voice, lots of body hair, and I grow dark, coarse hair along my chin and neck.  Clearly, this isn't because my T levels are unusually high.  If you're worried about normal levels of T having effects that you don't want, you can deal with them the same ways many cisgender women do (acne medications/ waxing/ etc.), or talk with your doctor about clinical options.  It's not very comprehensive but if you Google "testosterone in women" and click the WebMD link, they do provide some information that's pretty accessible.  Mayo Clinic online also offers some information, and is a reputable source. 

For medical information, in general, you really want to consult a physician, and not rely upon web resources as many have an agenda behind them.  I know that Mayo Clinic, and to a lesser extent, WebMD consistently provide limited but mostly accurate information.