Hi everyone. My name is Trisha Rai, it's the femme name that I've chosen for myself. This is basically my story so far:
It started when I was about four or five. I looked at the girls around me and thought - why can't I be like one of them? I began looking closely at women and how they acted. I began trying to imitate them at home. This lasted until I was about six.
For about the next three years I think I was just "normal" and I had to desire to feel or act feminine.
But at about nine the urge returned and since it hasn't gone away. My urge to be feminine is growing stronger and stronger everyday and I'm starting to become desperate. I have been caught in lipstick and nail polish but never actually fully crossdressed. But I have a very strong feeling my mom knows that I've been CD. She admitted she found skirts, blouses, bras, and lingerie in my closet. She however, doesn't recognise me to be a constant CD and doesn't know how deep my feelings go...for me it's not just about CD it's about being the girl that I am Trisha - all the time.
I become Trisha everyday I can - when I'm home alone. That's when I become happy.
My true feelings about being Trisha have been locked up until now...my rents are really religious if I came out I don't know what could happen.
Trisha
