Hi "Sarah"
Much of what you describe rings a bell in me. I think we have similar starting points and similar issues with the voice now. I was at about 110-130 Hz untrained pre op and at about 140-160 Hz trained and relaxed, going up to 200 Hz was possible but was straining and cost effort and sounded fake to me. My chest voice broke into head voice at about the middle C, but I was probably mostly using a blended voice below that (resonance control) and able to sound female until almost the D3 at 140 Hz or so. My upper pitch limits are also similar to yours, including the uppermost pitch being G5 ...
Post op I have found that using the lower ranges are straining my voice more than if I use upper ranges. I seem to be more gentle on my voice when it is used at 200 Hz than if I let it drop to 170 or 180 Hz or even below, which is however a place it sometimes wants to settle and I think this is what Dr Kim meant with retraining the voice. I found a good way to get used to the new optimum pitch seems to be singing, as singing for me naturally comes out a lot higher in pitch and without any male undertones. It gives me the feeling of working with female vocal chords now and not having to fight male subtones and pitch ranges.
I had a similar experience like you last weekend - I strained my voice a bit (campfires, some singing, lots of talking, rainy weather) and since then it feels rough, hoarse, weak and like I have something stuck in my throat. However Jessie replied to my request that it is more likely a cold infection than the Botox wearing off. So I guess all I can do now is voice rest and drinking tea and then make a voice redording to send to Yeson for analysis
Quote from: seattlesarah on June 01, 2015, 11:04:10 AM
I hadn't been misgendered on the phone in 6 years and I was stealth from 2010-2015, I came out this year for various reasons.
Oh wow - I am stealth in some aspects of my life for 15 years now, but dont really want to come out - I have a few friends who "know", though. Why did you go public with it?
QuoteI couldn't do blended voice at all. My chest voice could sound female down to quite a low pitch, say 150hz, because I learned to control resonance and have a sing song vocal style.
Are you sure this was not some "blended" voice?
QuoteI feel that both blend (which I couldn't do before the op) and falsetto sound fake/male.
Well, you gained blended voice, that is great already. What makes you think your upper range beyond the middle C is male sounding? Why would it be - if you do resonance properly. The Yeson exercises are almost all in that range - do you feel you sound male when doing them?
QuoteI measure my post-op not-thinking-about-it pitch at between 160hz and 176 hz depending on day. Yeson says the last sample I sent them measures at 244hz fundamental frequency - I measure it at 176 with praat. I asked them to double check they had the correct file and recheck the measurements but they say they are correct and that praat isn't as sophisticated as their program. It really does not sound like a 244hz voice.
I would like to hear that recording and analyze it in PRAAT. I have some tricks to use in PRAAT which give more accurate results.
Another way to check pitch is to use a piano or sound generator and see which note sounds most like your speaking voice. Its better someone else does that comparison though. My voice therapist uses this to determine my speaking pitch.
QuoteIt's been really bad since - croaky and tight. Today I tried consciously lifting my pitch - and the raspiness goes away significantly when I do! Maybe I am straining my voice by speaking too low, even though that's where my voice gravitates to?
So I'm consciously raising the pitch to the top end of my chest voice and accessing falsetto or blend (hard to control for me when jumping up into it from chest voice randomly, easy to do when going up a scale) when I need to go up from there. The resulting average pitch is 215-240hz, close to what Yeson said. To my ear it sounds fake, speaking up there, and I feel very conscious of the transitions between voice types - this doesn't have the feeling of freedom I expect cis women must have with their voices. I don't know if this is what Dr Kim meant by the brain needing to get used to the hew equipment - that it will feel fake for a while - but I thought we weren't supposed to actively try to raise the pitch and let it find its own level?
Actually I think this is partially true. I was given the instruction by Dr kim to consciously use that target pitch and not let it drop. As I understand it, I have to train my brain to use the voice at that pitch now which is my new optimum pitch, but my brain did not get it yet and is still used to the old equipment. I feel the transition to blended voice and head voice is all a lot easier now and actually I have a blended voice that ranges from G3 to D4 which is quite useable for speaking and comes quite easy - if I drop out of the blended voice, the voice gets hoarse, if I go upward I am in the head voice which is good for singing or some expressions but not for talking - doesnt make sense at 260 Hz anyways.
The interesting thing was that my voice therapist said, she has the same passagio points - she usually sings along me when we try singing different notes and she also breaks into a sort of head voice at the D4 or E4, sometimes even C4 - same with me. So this gave me the feeling that male and female voices are not as fundamentally different as some may think.
So for me it also feels weird - in some way it feels like I need to consciously shift something, in some ways it feels "right" to use the voice with the blended voice at that target pitch. I dont know how this will progress from here - most people who had the surgery did not report such details.
QuoteHowever this turns out I'm not getting the freedom from the pitch ceiling on my head voice that I hoped for before the op. I was hoping to be able to get up to A5 without strain. If that was an unrealistic expectation, ten let me be a lesson to others about what this operation can't do for you. At the end of the day I still feel like I am dealing with male vocal equipment.
Have you talked to women who are not good singers about how their voice feels and acts and reacts when speaking and going up in pitch? Maybe we can learn something there. I am not sure an A5 is easily used in speaking by all cis women...