Quote from: Tessa James on May 22, 2015, 07:05:19 PM
I was on vacation for a bit but it is nice to see you are continuing to make progress and seemingly answer your own questions. Taking the steps you have does give people clues and if coworkers are asking questions and your mom is talking about having had a boy, well you are likely helping them to see you in a new light. I too like having what amounts to a personal blog here. Sometimes the whole big picture of transition can seem overwhelming to us. I found some steps, like changing my name in a million places, was daunting. If we break it down to bite size pieces it may feel easier? As Barbie may have implied, you have a lifetime to make these course adjustments. The primary one, IMO, is just where you are with growing self acceptance and the start of a medical transition. Some folks come out before HRT and some not until years later but it is your call and I believe you will know when it is time while obviously dipping your toes in the coolest of waters now.
Thanks for replying Tessa, I was beginning to wonder if anybody was still reading my ramblings!
I hope you had a good vacation, where'd you go? Somewhere sunny with beaches or pools and cool drinks I hope, hehe.
Over the first several weeks or so of my self-discovery I was devouring all the information I could, going shopping, thinking about the future, making plans, etc... It felt like I was running in two dozen different directions at the same time. All this research though has made it easier to answer my own questions, as you pointed out. These past few days however have been "simpler" in that I'm no longer focusing on what I need to do to become the woman inside me on the outside, but instead I've kinda settled down and realized that all I really have to do is be me. It's so much less stressful that way. I felt like there were things that I absolutely HAD to do, but now that I've set most of those wheels in motion, I'm taking it easier.
I've been thinking about when to come out to whom, and while I feel like I want to shout it from the treetops to some people, I realize that's not the best option this early on and I need to choose my audiences more carefully. Like, I probably should take off my nail polish before going out to dinner with some of our friends tonight, even though I really like it!
Also, since I'll be having to wait a while still for HRT due to appointment scheduling, I thought about getting some of those breast enlargement creams, pills, etc... to see if I could maybe get a jump start on things, does anybody have thoughts on those, or should I start a new thread maybe to ask I wonder...?
Oh, and we've started thinking about what our baby will call us once she's born and able to speak. I'll hopefully be about 6-9 months on hormones at that point and presenting exclusively female around the house at least and out in public where people don't know us, haha. I was thinking of going by BB (pronounced bee bee). So we'd be Mommy and BB. I'm trying the name on with our cats right now.
