Hi everyone! I'm jaysin, and I've recently discovered more of myself and about my own gender identity. When I was younger I knew I was different but raised in a house with two brothers and being brought up in a small town in Minnesota famous for hockey, you tend to find ways to conceal your true self. I was born male and thus was told to act that way and be a man and all that machismo ->-bleeped-<-. I've always known I was bisexual but growing up I hid that part of me. Then hoping for that freedom of college and self realization where I could truly find myself, I wound up meeting a girl and started a family a lot earlier than anticipated. So I played the dad roll and the husband roll and didn't pay any of those thoughts that were hidden deep within any mind. But then divorce..... I kept my son and we moved on. While on my own I discovered a love for crossdressing. Being a woman made me feel right, but at the same time I still want to be a man some days and a woman others. So I went looking and did some research. I guess I'm somewhere in the bigender, gender fluid area. I'm still very new to this, and now I'm remarried to an amazing woman that supports me no matter what. She has started to help me buy clothes and forms and help make me look like I feel. But I guess I need other people in the same kind of situation to talk to. I'm still very confused, but I'm finding out more about myself everyday. It's become stressful and I'm having more anxiety as the need to present as a woman on days that I feel that way are more frequent. The worries about doing so are truly overwhelming at times. My son is 7, how do I explain that to him? How do I deal with it if his mother tries to get custody again? People at work? Family? Friends? I guess I just need a friend. Sorry for my ramblings! Jaysin
