The pain is in my entire genital region. I experience pain on in inner thighs, pubic bone, urethra area, vagina (and I barely feel any sexual sensation inside of it. Sometimes I don't feel anything when I am penetrated. Sometimes I feel numbness and sometimes I experience pain and burning.) I used to have extremely excruciating periods because I had huge cysts inside of both ovaries. I have been on testosterone therapy since July 2010 and I haven't had a period since. I also have a long scar from the base of my penis (very large clitoris, way larger than the typical transmale penis. 2 inches soft and over 3 inches fully hard. I can fully penetrate an ->-bleeped-<- and a vagina and receive oral sex.) I have asked my parents about it. My mom becomes quiet and immediately changes the subject whenever I talk about my intersex condition or if I ask her about my scar. When I was 9 I asked her about my scar and she said it was "a bathing suit line" even though it was winter! Another early memory I have was when I was urinating standing up. I was probably 5 or 6. My mom was upset and told me to never do it again. My chest was extremely small. I never wore a bra so I am not entirely sure what size they were, but if I were to guess I'd say less than an A. I didn't bind until high school and I really didn't have to because I was so flat chested. I binded because I began to feel self-conscious. I want genital reconstruction surgery because I want to experience pain free sex whenever I penetrate my boyfriend. Also, my urethra area causes me extreme pain and I want that to stop. As I mentioned earlier, I have pain and numbness (it's hard to fully explain without actually experiencing the pain) and I don't want to experience that anymore. I have had a karotype test and they tested 5 cells (I think they should have tested more) and I am XX.
