Growing up "female"

[Jake25]

i don't know actually from where to start cause i deal with so many hurtful things i completely broke and a big part of me will never fix cause i've been in so much pain and abuse i can remember a part of my life i stopped having feelings cause of all the pain i've been through i didn't had feeling no more i felt like a monster i can say i back my humanity but not all of it cause the damage already happened and it can never be fixed it was not just dealing with F clothes i was forced to talk like one to walk like one and i was hit by a lot of family members i still can remember all the blue kicks on my body cause i was trying to be me and that was till i was 15 plus the psychological harm ....
i can't smile to people..i can't show my emotions or talk to people cause i always think they will treat me bad and i was always right...i can't sleep and i always have nightmares about the past...the doctor think i'm autism and refuse to understand all that cause i'm trans and i have identity crisis not autism

I hope as an adult you have emotionally supportive people. If not you should move to an area where people are supportive of things like this.

[Mosaic dude]

i don't know actually from where to start cause i deal with so many hurtful things i completely broke and a big part of me will never fix cause i've been in so much pain and abuse i can remember a part of my life i stopped having feelings cause of all the pain i've been through i didn't had feeling no more i felt like a monster i can say i back my humanity but not all of it cause the damage already happened and it can never be fixed it was not just dealing with F clothes i was forced to talk like one to walk like one and i was hit by a lot of family members i still can remember all the blue kicks on my body cause i was trying to be me and that was till i was 15 plus the psychological harm ....i can't smile to people..i can't show my emotions or talk to people cause i always think they will treat me bad and i was always right...i can't sleep and i always have nightmares about the past...the doctor think i'm autism and refuse to understand all that cause i'm trans and i have identity crisis not autism

It's terrible when our family, who should be the best people in our lives, can actually be some of the worst.  I hope you have supportive people in your life these days.

[Elvis the Pelvis]

My parents wouldn't let me sign up to play hockey with the boys...this was 30 years ago mind you and it wasn't very common. I did play with them though in the end. My parents said the boys were too rough...it was a terrible excuse because the boys were afraid of me lol...