Hi everyone, as you can see my names Kylie and I've just recently come out to my family and close friends (Only Yesterday) about how I feel and what I want to do about it and all of them have accepted it with open arms, they suggested I find a group online to get to know others who have or are going through what I hope I will eventually get to, so here I am. Now a little about me I suppose

I'm 24 years old from the UK and have always felt confused about who I was, I suppose it all started when I was about 11 or 12 and started to go through puberty, I used to think not about girls so much as what it would be like to be one, every now and then I would wear some of my sister's clothes (I know but when you're young its the only real option, that or my mum's and well, that was too much for me

) and I would always feel so much more comfortable whilst I was dressed, I'd occasionally try a bit of make-up on aswell and it always made me feel special.
However I knew that these feelings were "wrong" as I'd hear about people like me and hear the derision in people's voices when they spoke, this led me to suppressing these feelings and trying to be "normal", this led to a vicious spiral of pain, depression and suppression until eventually I'd shut my feelings up so much that I couldn't tell anyone what was wrong as I didn't know myself, this led to losing friends and alienating myself from people who loved and cared for me.
Ever since then I've suffered from varying degrees of depression, and overtime it's waxed and waned, I could never figure out why I'd have these mood swings, in the end I started to deeply look at myself and my feelings, a few months ago now I finally embraced to myself that this is who I am, I felt like I was born in the wrong body and with the acceptance (And yes I know this sounds cliche) that Caitlyn Jenner has received and the way people have supported her, I realised that people like me weren't looked at with derision as much now, in fact alot of people respected us, this was a real turning point for me and ever since then I've been much happier in myself. As I say I've just recently come out to my family and friends, I am looking to go to the doctors soon to get myself referred and hopefully get the process started

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Anyway thats me and my little story, I hope it wasn't too personal for some but it's all necessary to me. Hope to get to know you all soon. xxx