I'm fed up with this 'never-ending' transition pffft!

[Evolving Beauty]

I'm just more than halfway through. I did SRS but my FFS costs 3 times more and I'm getting effing sick and tired of all this transition. Don't you sometimes feel so tired and just dunno what to do anymore? I feel so exhausted and helpless in my soul. 

[stephaniec]

sorry your having a rough time. Foe me personally I'm just happy with hormones. It would be great to have the deluxe  plan, but that's not going to happen for me, I'm just so glad for the hormones though.

[Laura_7]

Do you really need ffs ?
Avocado oil was recommended as a source for fat by a doc...

having well groomed eyebrows, and a nice hairstyle, maybe with bangs over the forehead, can help...
a nourishing product for the face, and sparesly applied makeup...

beauty is also in the eye of the beholder... if we look at ourselves with a benign eye we see a lot of things we can be happy with...

and remember beauty culture is even worse for cis girls... having imagined spots here and there... which some people, especially men, often like...

the deepening of the vag might not be as much, but it might be kind of risky... I'd talk it through with the surgeon...
maybe someone in europe can be found... its all a matter of a few emails...

well... would that give you a feeling of achievment and being able to rest some ?

[Evolving Beauty]

Do you really need ffs ?
Avocado oil was recommended as a source for fat by a doc...

having well groomed eyebrows, and a nice hairstyle, maybe with bangs over the forehead, can help...
a nourishing product for the face, and sparesly applied makeup...

beauty is also in the eye of the beholder... if we look at ourselves with a benign eye we see a lot of things we can be happy with...

and remember beauty culture is even worse for cis girls... having imagined spots here and there... which some people, especially men, often like...

the deepening of the vag might not be as much, but it might be kind of risky... I'd talk it through with the surgeon...

well... would that give you a feeling of achievment and being able to rest some ?

Thanks for the advice  Complete with my face, hips/curves, documents changed & vaginal depth  it's taking an eternity. I took 1 decade to complete the boobs/srs. Even that effing srs I did was an epic failure. At least not the aesthetics thanks god. Now how much will I need to fight more, I'm getting so exhausted now. 

[Laura_7]

Well tbh the only point I'd see would be vaginal depth. And I personally would dilate with estrogen cream. You said you originally had 4 in. If dilated with big dilators you might dilate to a bit more, and adequate circumference.

You might send a few emails to european surgeons... since you would not have to cross borders...
the first link here could give a template for an inquired procedure...
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,193370.msg1724055.html#msg1724055

The rest imo is in the eye of the beholder...
many men like it if figures are well toned and not overly rounded...
it might make for a sporty workout later in the evening...

giving you a *hug*