Well, plan is too strong a word. I have a strong impulse to tell my parents before the end of the year, despite the inevitable consequences of that action. I want to be myself, and I want to share that with the people I love. Chips fall where they may.
Now, there is a new development that may move up or move back my timetable. My father may be offered a new position with in his company, and this may require a move. They have suggested that I, along with my sister and brother-in-law, could rent their house and live there. It's a great home, and I'd love to live there, but I'm afraid to live anywhere that I could be expelled from for being myself.
At the same time, I'm afraid to turn down the offer, because that might require me to come out before I'm prepared. I want to savor the amount of time I have with my family, as long as that may be. It would be terrible to lose them this early in the process. I'd also hate for my sister and brother-in-law to miss out on this offer, if they can't afford it without me.
It's a problem without an easy solution, and I just wanted to vent about it. Thanks for listening, all. I'm also open to any suggestions.
Hugs and Kisses,
Tamika
