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Today I looked in the mirror

Started by MicheleGui, August 14, 2015, 09:48:57 PM

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MicheleGui

August 14, 2015, 09:48:57 PM
Hi everyone.
I'm 19, born male, and only for the past 2 years I started seriously considering that I might have a wrong chromossome.
Today was a very special day for me and I wanted to share it with you:

I live with two sisters, one is older than me and the other one is younger. During this afternoon, they both left the apartment and I knew they would only come back at the end of the day, so I decided to try my hand at some makeup.

I didn't go perfectly because I was using their makeup and their skin tone is very light when compared to mine (at least I bought my own foundation).

Then I looked in the mirror.

I saw a girl.

And it didn't feel wrong. It didn't feel like I was doing that for a hobby, a fantasy or a fetish. It felt right.

That girl was me. And for the first time, I had no doubt about that.

This little (and probably silly) experience gave me a new light, and now I'm 100% sure I'll go for the HRT. I wanna be myself everyday and not have to hide it anymore.

Thanks for the attention. And I would love to know if some of you here have an experience like this to share.

Hugs~


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JLT1

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August 14, 2015, 09:55:15 PM
Hi,

That is a powerful and special experience...to see ones self as one really is.  Start withave a therapist and see where it goes.

Hugs

Jen
To move forward is to leave behind that which has become dear. It is a call into the wild, into becoming someone currently unknown to us. For most, it is a call too frightening and too challenging to heed. For some, it is a call to be more than we were capable of being, both now and in the future.
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KatelynBG

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August 15, 2015, 07:01:04 AM
I had this same experience in February the first time I put on a wig and make up. It was very powerful. Unfortunately my wife discovered my things and we nearly divorced.
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MugwortPsychonaut

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August 15, 2015, 02:28:05 PM
Wow, congratulations! Isn't that a wonderful feeling? I had something very similar on my way to my first therapy appointment. I went there "as a girl." It was a bright & sunny day outside, and seeing the purple sparkles on my lips made my heart sing. When I saw my therapist, I told her, "I came to figure out if I was really trans or not, but now I know that I totally am." :)
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barbie

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August 16, 2015, 11:27:32 AM
Yes. A mirror is an essential equipment to me, too. I watch it dozens of times per day. I love myself.

barbie~~
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