Hi everyone.
I'm 19, born male, and only for the past 2 years I started seriously considering that I might have a wrong chromossome.
Today was a very special day for me and I wanted to share it with you:

I live with two sisters, one is older than me and the other one is younger. During this afternoon, they both left the apartment and I knew they would only come back at the end of the day, so I decided to try my hand at some makeup.

I didn't go perfectly because I was using their makeup and their skin tone is very light when compared to mine (at least I bought my own foundation).

Then I looked in the mirror.

I saw a girl.

And it didn't feel wrong. It didn't feel like I was doing that for a hobby, a fantasy or a fetish. It felt right.

That girl was me. And for the first time, I had no doubt about that.

This little (and probably silly) experience gave me a new light, and now I'm 100% sure I'll go for the HRT. I wanna be myself everyday and not have to hide it anymore.

Thanks for the attention. And I would love to know if some of you here have an experience like this to share.

Hugs~

Hi,

That is a powerful and special experience...to see ones self as one really is.  Start withave a therapist and see where it goes.

Hugs

Jen

I had this same experience in February the first time I put on a wig and make up. It was very powerful. Unfortunately my wife discovered my things and we nearly divorced.

Wow, congratulations! Isn't that a wonderful feeling? I had something very similar on my way to my first therapy appointment. I went there "as a girl." It was a bright & sunny day outside, and seeing the purple sparkles on my lips made my heart sing. When I saw my therapist, I told her, "I came to figure out if I was really trans or not, but now I know that I totally am."

Yes. A mirror is an essential equipment to me, too. I watch it dozens of times per day. I love myself.

barbie~~

Imo its also in the eyes...

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,193122.msg1721840.html#msg1721840


hugs