I feel so ugly all the time and hate looking at myself, and am constantly feeling the aftermath of my own horribly broken family which leads me to get really depressed and drink too much, which in turn leads me to feel like I'm never going to finish my book, never feel good about myself, never release any of my music, and never be the person I truly believe I can be simply because I'm so easily derailed from achieving my goals, as well as never revealing to my father that I actually think I might be a girl inside because he's already been so hurt and broken by everything else in life that I know it would drive him over the edge.
*deep breath*
I think I might take a mildly intoxicated unicycle ride.