Ok so this post is actually something I posted about a long time ago.
In an old post I did I was talking about how I actually felt more comfortable with a non-binary label then just being a women. I identified myself as trans feminine and non-binary or a demi-girl. I waaent on to explain my dysphoria, and many people actually were more dismissive then anything. They said I was thinking about it to much. This was last November I believe. I eventually decided that they were probably right and that I am actually a trans women.
So here I am coming back again and I still think that demi-girl is the most honest label for me to use.
Here is why. First my main reason for transitioning was I wanted to appear feminine and I wasn't gonna be happy with how I looked until I did. I didn't like being called or being treated like a man. I didn't feel like that was the real me. It felt wrong for me to identify myself as a male. So I just decided I was a trans women due to the fact that: I knew I wanted to transition and the fact that I knew I hated being called and treated like a male.
But last November I started to recognize I felt similar dysphoria towards identifying myself as a women to what I felt about identifying myself as a man. First a while I rejected this and would identify myself as female regardless.
This feeling hasn't gone away. But with time I have become more in tune with those feelings. I like to appear feminine and I would be ok with people who don't know me to just assume I am a women or a trans women, but I will never identify myself as a women from now on. While I will still use female pronouns (they/them is also fine) and dress in a femme way.
This label is not a point of shame or confusion anymore. It provides me insight and relief to my previous confusion. So don't say I am binary or that I am confused about what being non-binary really is.
I still am going forward with my transition but from now on I won't give pressure to be more like the cis image femininity.
Peace
*Mic drop*
