I'm a transguy and although I can forsee myself coming out to friends, family, and for them to use my correct name and pronouns, I don't think I'll ever be able to fully transition physically. I might be able to go on HRT, but as for bottom surgery and top surgery, I doubt I will be able to do either of that for many reasons, financially is just one of them.
The thing is I'm really worried about the same things I think a lot of people are- about having sex with a partner, changing rooms, toilets, and about just feeling sort of disjointed with my body, like things just don't match up.
If I go on HRT I can begin to present and pass much better as a guy than I do now (which is almost never, because I have quite a stereotypically feminine face/body), but as for all the rest well...
I guess end of the day I sort of have this empty dream of never needing surgery and having a natural flat chest and penis but...since that can't happen, I have to live with what I have now. I've looked a bit into bottom surgery and although I know there can be some great results, I don't think it's possible for me and honestly I am a bit scared of the process.
I don't know, does anyone have any advice/experience living non-op? How do I tackle these worries? I just hope one day I can live how I want to and be who I want happily, both mentally/emotionally and physically.