Greetings, those that pay attention to the introduction subforum.
Where to start, where to start. Hi everybody, my name is Joanna, a 22 year old transwoman. I like long walks on the beach and reading romance novels. Actually those are both lies, I've only ever been to a beach a handful of times, and I can't stand romance novels. Romance in a novel is not inherently a bad thing, but please god let there be an actual plot.
Regarding my transness, my story actually seems to be somewhat unique. I honestly never really thought about it until male puberty started, and at the time I didn't really care what was happening to me. My teen years could mostly be described as the time I became antisocial, closed off, and unfeeling, though I never attributed it to being trans. That was also when I began having fantasies of being female, though they were entirely sexual in nature. It progressed into curiosity about women's clothing and cross-dressing, in either my mother's or stepmother's clothing and jewelry, while home alone. Near the end of high school was when I actually started making some (at the time) risky decisions to do some girly things. You all probably know how it goes: growing hair out, full body shaving, nail polish, a bracelet, pierced ears, women's boot-cut jeans, ballet flats. There was some push-back from my parents, though in retrospect it wasn't that bad; I justified it by saying it's just what I wanted to do. I denied that I was trans, because I didn't believe I was at the time. It wasn't until I had basically completely changed my wardrobe, that I realized I still wasn't happy. It was my body that wasn't feminine enough: my figure, my flat chest, my face.
It was on my 21st birthday that I admitted it to myself. I am a transwoman. Since then I have lived part-time, being out to everyone except work, my mother and stepfather, and my two older brothers. I have passed in many situations before I even started trying to. I have been able to get on HRT (it's been almost two months) through informed consent. In all honesty, I have had extremely favorable circumstances, although there is still quite a ways to go. Looking back from here, I now realize some things like why I always preferred to play female characters in games and would only play male characters to hide that fact.
On a less serious note, my biggest hobby is gaming/desktop building (PC gaming master race). This lovely steel box on my desk is around 3 years old now, though I just recently had to replace my dying video card, a battle-worn geforce 560ti, because of what I suspect was a VRAM failure. So now I have a brand new 960 taking up residence in it's old seat on my motherboard, with something like a 50% increase in performance. It looks all fancy with its backplate and aftermarket dual fan heatsink. I have been going to school for computer engineering for several years, while working practically full-time (part-time, no benefits) to support myself and my girlfriend, who is going to cosmetology school this year. She and I have been together for over five years, obviously before I started transition, and I have been incredibly lucky to have her complete support, since she is a genderfluid pansexual.
So yah, I guess I'm not exactly the biggest girly girl, which I think may be why it took me a while to figure it out.
tldr, I'm trans and a bunch of other stuff.
#bad@poasting
