Congratulations on exploring your new-found sense of self!
Before I was on HRT, I was pretty flat emotionally. No real ups, no real downs, and now I frequently experience the FULL RANGE OF INSANITY that are emotions. I can cry at the drop of a hat now, both tears of heartache, and tears of sheer joy. I have a newborn baby girl at home, and holding her brings those tears of joy, but when I think of how I lost my cat a couple months ago, the sadness overwhelms me.
I never cried over anything before... Happiness and excitement weren't really part of my life before. Sure, there were enjoyable things, but I think back to the unadulterated bliss I would experience as a child when opening birthday or christmas present, and I haven't had that for years, but now I do!
On the flip side, when I lost my grandmothers, I didn't cry much. Sure I shed a tear or two, but mainly because everyone else around me was and I felt overwhelmed by the sadness that permeated the air around me. I cry now though, especially when alone, when I think about how they'll never get to see their great granddaughter.
So yeah, I get what you're saying. Hormones have brought the color back into my life when it was all a dull gray before. I am so happy for you. Go out and live your life! I finally am!
P.s. My boobs/nipples have been hurting in varying degrees for 3 months now, ungh! I can see definite breast tissue forming though, and can pull some decent cleavage together with a sticky bra. I'm pretty lean and have actually been losing weight, but my pects are certainly getting puffy!
I'm enjoying watching my nipples change in shape and texture too.
