Dena, that's exactly what is happening with me now. I have this thoughts many times in my life, the feeling is always there, the difference is that there are sometimes that i have a lot of distractions and this go without being noticed. But the distraction goes off and BOOM.
That is a decision that i kind always ran away, tried to convince me that's not my case, but i have seen some stuff lately that i cannot ignore it. I do realy need now a gender therapist, to help realize whats going on and make a decidion.
Thank you for support, i am feeling very welcome here.