Hey all,
My job goes through seasons of being very busy to times in the summer where it feels like I am retired and free. I am during the more hectic time and will be there off and on for months. This is why I go through periods of activity here and then disappear for a while. I am not really fully back, just up late at the moment.
Just feel the need to complain a little. I have a birthday coming up, feeling old and like there is no progress. Discovering and accepting the real me was great and scary last spring. Still plenty to be scared about but now feeling like it will never progress. I feel stuck. I have been encouraging people on this site to take it easy and be patient. Now I feel like a hypocrite.
My therapist and I are getting along well and making good progress. She wrote me a letter to set up a meeting with an endocrinologist. I contacted the office and sent the letter over. It took nearly a month to get a reply. I was excited when I finally got it. They were happy to schedule me for January 29...I know compared to many I am lucky to have the quick access to my therapist last year; I will be starting HRT about a year after starting. I am lucky. It still felt like I got punched in the belly.
Between the tension of work, the looming age day and the long wait, it just seems hopeless. Sorry for all the drama. Just needed to vent somewhere. My wife is pretty understanding, but sometimes it is a little foreign to her.
Thanks for the space,
Joanna
