I am Not Sure Where I am, But I am Here ... Please Say Hello

[BreeD]

I am not sure where I am, but I am here ... today. 

I am not sure is I am non-binary, but that is where I am planting my flag ... today. 

This is hello to all you wonderful people who's stories have been so incredibly helpful to me.  I might not ever get to say personally, but your journey has helped me feel real, normal, valid...an ever shifting color pallet of emotion that is my life reflected in your truth.  Thank you all!  Everyone one of you are beautiful!  Your anger, your drive...your soul.  Beautiful.

My gender doesn't fit.  It feels sideways to how everyone "sees" me.  Up until age 35 I thought I had it all figured out.  Now, I feel lost.  I started therapy a few weeks ago.  My therapist seems positive, but I wonder given my heartland location.  I am hopeful. 

I have lurked here for ages.  I had a bunch of wine tonight and built up the "courage" to post this.  Please forgive its ridiculousness; its sad attempt at prose. 

I love this space.  Thank you all for letting me in ... I hope my story and my words can help someone someday. 

Please say hello.  I could use that. 

[Ms Grace]

Hey BreeD!

Welcome to Susan's    Great to have you here - looking forward to seeing you around the forum.

Really glad to hear that the stories people have shared have been an inspiration to you.

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Cheers

Grace

[Dena]

Welcome to Susan's place. I am on the other end of the spectrum as a very long post surgical transsexual but we still have a lot in common. We both fall under the transgender flag which includes cross dressers, non binary and transsexuals. Feel free to ask any questions you might have and if I don't know the answer, maybe somebody else will. Also don't feel nervous about this site. We all made our first post and many felt much like you did when you made your first post. I may have been an exception because I came here for voice surgery and my reassignment surgery was 33 yeas ago. I really haven't had anything to be nervous about for a very long time.

[sarahmarie.butterfly]

Welcome Bree!

I am a bit similar to you.  I don't know where I stand but I know it is not where I've stood before.  You are farther than me as I have not gotten a therapist yet.  :-)  Welcome again!

*hugs*

-Sarah Marie-

[suzifrommd]

Welcome, Bree. Your courage will be rewarded. You are now part of a loving accepting community. I hope we help you appreciate your place in the gendered world.

[BreeD]

Thanks for the well wishes and hellos, and hello to all the lurkers (myself being a former lurker). 

[BreeD]

@sarahmarie I think therapy is worth it. It's early (my second appointment is Thursday), but I am supremely hopeful I will make real progress.  I am so unsure of so many things.  I first need someone to help me sort though my feelings.