It's one year and a week since my GRS with Dr. Chet. I'm happy to report that I've experienced my first orgasm! I was beginning to wonder if it would ever happen, but it's not like I've been trying that hard to get there. I don't have a strong sex drive like I did before I started HRT.
I've been more interested in pursuing sexual pleasure lately. I don't know why the change. I guess my body has finally adjusted to all the changes in chemistry and neural restructuring that transition involves. I'm fully healed now for all I can tell, so I'm not worried about doing any damage to myself while experimenting. I'm in a same-sex relationship, and my partner and I are intimate, but this first ever female orgasm was accomplished alone. I look forward to having a shared experience with her in the future.
I can see now how important it is to achieve a mental state of sexual arousal; something that was easy for me as a male, has not been as a female with a serum testosterone level measuring only 8 ng/dl. I've avoided resorting to porn to generate an arousal state, and the few times that I tried to achieve arousal through porn, I found it ineffective and rather boring. The kind of porn you find on-line is very male-oriented and so mechanical. It does nothing for me now.
But last night after a dilation session, and having earlier watched a program on TV with an erotic sex scene, I felt an urge to make another attempt at stimulating an orgasm. I had my usual low expectations of success, and it seemed for awhile that I'd be better off using the time to read or go to sleep. But, something was telling me it was going to be different that evening, and it was.
In my semi-aroused mental state, and while playing a particularly erotic video on my laptop, I felt the tension start to swell from my clitoral vestibule. Yeah, not the clitoris itself. This surprised me, but apparently, the tissue that Dr. Chet used to fashion the area around and below the clitoris has a lot of nerve endings. Remember that Chet uses the penile tissue to construct the vulva, scrotal tissue for the neo-vagina.
The pleasurable sensations built up to a very intense level and began to spread to my upper thighs and toward my abdomen. It was similar to my former male orgasm except more intense, sustained, and no muscle spasm associated with ejaculation. The experience was so unexpectedly powerful that I backed off digital stimulation. I don't know how long I could have kept it going if I had tried. I came down from climax faster than I hoped, but breathing heavily and feeling totally wonderful. Needless to say, I was ecstatic.
