One of the hardest things about transition is patience. Not all human bodies are the same and they react differently to the estrogen and an anti- androgen. I have had friends who have said the same thing as you only to experience rapid changes at some point. I would spend my time now concentrating on some very important areas that as time passes will become more important. Those include determining which hair style works best with your face, your ability to apply not only makeup but the right makeup for the time of day, occasion and what you are wearing. You also need to be focusing on building your wardrobe and accessories, making sure they are age appropriate and not anything that would make you stand out and draw unwanted attention. Moreover.....your voice and feminine comportment skills need to be sharp as well. All of this takes time to learn and master. Trust me, once your changes start to become apparent to the world you better have done a lot of work on these items. If not, then you are going to get some strange looks and probably some not to kind comments. Becoming a woman that the world visually accepts is a journey......not a one day trip to the beach and back. You also need to give some thought about FFS. All males have certain markers which set them apart from females......and those markers can be very telling. FFS is expensive but is very much worth the money you spend. Even if you can't get all the things done that you would like to have at first you need to try to get those most apparent markers removed.....they include Adams Apple......male jaw contour and chin. Afterwards you can go back and get other less important but helpful work done. It will really make a difference and give you confidence moving forward. As much as SRS was important for me, the FFS has made my everyday life much easier and less stressful. But again, look at transition as a journey. The pain, frustration you are experiencing now is very much worth it as you will come out on the other side much happier, content and definitely a woman not only internally but also to the rest of the world. Good luck!!
