I was just bit by a strong wave of dysphoria. Stronger than I've felt for a while, likely because I have been suppressing it to an extent. I think I do that a lot just to stay sane. A great deal of this has to do with shark week, which makes me feel depressed as is and sometimes the influx of hormones will make me feel female/feminine. When that happens, I know what is about to happen. I was upset but keeping it at bay and now I'm just full-on dysphoric.
Feel free to ignore this and I'll likely delete this later, I just needed a place to vent.