Hi,
It's my first message and I struggled already to find the button for posting a message things are starting badly .
Anyway its done, now.
I started transitioning last year, after nearly a year and a half of counselling.
Now under HRT for the last past 6 months. And really happy about this decision who took me nearly a life time I'm reaching my 40's next year.
I really though I was crazy when I was younger and I wouldn't have brought this subject of transgender, transsexual or cross-dressing to any of my parents for any reason on earth, event this words where completely foreign to me at the time. My parent were practical and not really listening what ever I would have said.
I started digging all the book from my parent's library , fact was no general medical book from late 70's was mentioning any of my symptom ... and worst my body was definitely male , I was curse
I though this feeling this need will step away at some point...
I wasn't ready to accept a sexuality who wasn't mine a the time or certainly more scare by the society regard , and my Christian education who have no place
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
After multiple (straight) relationship, a son , my alcoholism and substance abuse, I found a simple way out at work and by work more I really mean it until I fail physically.
My last girlfriend certainly did take the best decision of my life. she was expecting us to see a couple councillor, I finished to see a psychologist (therapist, don't really know the terminology).
After many sessions ,I finish to empty my bag and decided to my journey toward my real-self.
Coming out wasn't easy but from my family ( not all of them know yet) , my friend, colleagues are really supportive. And I been really lucky so far, I have to admit.
My journey really just started ,
Hope you will forgive me for misspells and grammatical mistake , English is only my second language.
Amy
