GCS with McGinn Dec 9

[JLT1]

Well, the time is comming fast.  Not fast enough but at the same time, way to fast.  I find myself questioning, well, everything.  Why couldn't I have just been normal?  Why couldn't I have just accepted being male?  Why, why, WHY?  And I keep coming up with the same answer...I am what I am. Now it is time to begin a new phase of life.  It is time to live.

Hugs

Jen

[stephaniec]

congrats, good luck and may the force be with you.

[JLT1]

Thank you Stephanie.

Went to work today. It seems that everyone heard that I am heading out for surgery and wanted something done before I left. That was on top of all that I had to do.  Very hectic.  Then it was home and getting ready to be gone for several weeks.  Just got the wife to bed.  She Had A Hard Day As well. 

I am still amazed that she is still with me.  Early on, she left three times but came back each time.  She has been both a rock in helping me when I was down.  She would make me laugh or take me shopping.  I think she paid for most of my clothes.  Solid support then. She was what I  needed to get out of a funk.  But she has also been a lead weight at times.  When she was down, she tended to lash out, mostly at me for undergoing a transition she still cannot understand.  I don't blame her lack of understanding because I am not sure if I understand this overwhelming compulsion to be a woman.  But even in the worst of times, I  never doubted her love.

Tomorrow, it's off to Toledo for our first stop.  We'll be in Philadelphia Sunday. I like to drive. Its a good time to think.  I'm just not sure if I really want to think.  Apprehension sucks.

Hugs

Jen

[kittenpower]

Congratulations and best wishes!

[Lyndsey]

Well, the time is comming fast.  Not fast enough but at the same time, way to fast.  I find myself questioning, well, everything.  Why couldn't I have just been normal?  Why couldn't I have just accepted being male?  Why, why, WHY?  And I keep coming up with the same answer...I am what I am. Now it is time to begin a new phase of life.  It is time to live.

Hugs

Jen

Oh My i had the same thoughts late last summer as like you said it isn't soon enough but then again so fast coming. well my surgery was on October 20th 2015 with Dr. Marci Bowers and I'm 6 weeks post-op now and have never been so happy in my life. The night before my surgery was very emotional and i didn't sleep much as I had to be at the Mills Peninsular Hospital by 5:30 am. My surgery was at 7:30am. I calmed down a lot in the morning and was filled with excitement as i knew this was my final big step as to becoming what I knew i was my whole life. to me it has been life changing and so wonderful. and by the way wait till you see the difference that happens without the T in your system Big changes very fast and all positive.

Enjoy
Hugs Lyndsey

[Emjay]

Congratulations and best wishes for a quick recovery Jen!

I've only started researching so far but from what I've seen, McGinn does amazing work.  She is my first choice when my time comes. 

Safe travels

[Blush]

You're in good hands with Dr. McGinn.

[TG CLare]

Dear Jen;

I only just saw this post, sorry.

I was down to see Dr. McGinn on Monday for my 6 month check. Her office was way backed up, something that I'd not ever encountered before if you were there on Monday for your pre-op visit. Actually, I did see a lady who looks like you but your picture here is rather small. My appointment was for 11:30 but because of my driving distance, Dr. McGinn had said to come in early and she would try and fit me in. Well, didn't quite work out that way. She was a little late, and I found out ended up having to leave for a short time for an emergency of some sort and I didn't get out until 2:00 PM. (I was sitting to the right of the doorway if you noticed me.)

As you will find out, you are in excellent hands with Dr. McGinn. I don't know if you are staying at Dr. McGinn's B&B in New Hope after but Diana, the manager is a great person. Unfortunately you won't be able to take advantage of all the amenities New Hope has to offer until later on but it's a nice place in the summer. Ride the train, it's a lovely trip through the countryside and the Triumph Brewing Company has an awesome selection of tasty beers.

I wish you luck and a speedy recovery. It's rough for the first 3 weeks but gets better daily after that and after 6 weeks you're very much improved.

Love,
Clare

[Laura_7]

Well.. so its tomorrow...
wish you luck...

you might do a few things to calm you down...
maybe a short walk, or a few exercises...

or a few romantic movies 


hugs

[FTMax]

Good luck tomorrow! Best wishes.

[JLT1]

Surgery got postponed.  I am very unhappy.  Very, very unhappy.

[stephaniec]

sorry

[Laura_7]

Surgery got postponed.  I am very unhappy.  Very, very unhappy.

Well do you have a new date ?


hugs

[TG CLare]

Oh no, I am so very sorry to hear that. Do you know what happened to cancel? It's not like Dr. McGinn to cancel unless something extremely important came up.

Hopefully she can reschedule it very soon.

Thinking of you.

Love,
Clare

[Emjay]

I'm so sorry to hear that.  I hope it's not postponed for too long!

Best wishes,

Meg

[Lyndsey]

Well, the time is comming fast.  Not fast enough but at the same time, way to fast.  I find myself questioning, well, everything.  Why couldn't I have just been normal?  Why couldn't I have just accepted being male?  Why, why, WHY?  And I keep coming up with the same answer...I am what I am. Now it is time to begin a new phase of life.  It is time to live.

Hugs

Jen

Oh My I'm so sorry!!! Hopefully they will not hold you back long. This must be devastating as it is such a build up of emotions as you well know to be shot down at the last minute. WOW!

Big Hug's
Lyndsey

[JLT1]

Hi,

Doing a little better.  I want to clarify: Dr McGinn was willing to go forward with the surgery.  I postponed it.  I really busted up my knee on Oct 2. It got messed up to the point that the surgeons would only do a knee replacement and that was not an option.  However, I missed the weight cut off.  That represents a surgical risk.  However, the bigger risk was that she did not get copies of my medical records.  THAT IS A HUGE PROBLEM.

I have difficulties with anesthesia if not handled correctly.  When I awoke after my second back surgery, it was five hours late and I was hooked up to a heart monitor.  It was very bad.  A brilliant anesteologst worked out a procedure that has worked fine on several subsequent surgeries.  Dr McGinn needed that procedure. 

Lastly...My mother took DES as a prenatal fertility drug.  This use was banned after five years because of severe birth defects. I beleive this was the first drug use actually banned in the US.  I mentioned two defects and she was upset because she needed to know.  The problem it's that those were just the start of the list.  She needed that information and I could not get it sitting in PA.  So, it was postponed.

I do not mean to blame Dr McGinn. 

Jen

[Rachel]

Jen,

I am very sorry to read what occurred. I hope your are feeling better. I can not imagine how you must feel.

I owe you a lunch next time you are in town.

[Lyndsey]

Hi,

Doing a little better.  I want to clarify: Dr McGinn was willing to go forward with the surgery.  I postponed it.  I really busted up my knee on Oct 2. It got messed up to the point that the surgeons would only do a knee replacement and that was not an option.  However, I missed the weight cut off.  That represents a surgical risk.  However, the bigger risk was that she did not get copies of my medical records.  THAT IS A HUGE PROBLEM.

I have difficulties with anesthesia if not handled correctly.  When I awoke after my second back surgery, it was five hours late and I was hooked up to a heart monitor.  It was very bad.  A brilliant anesteologst worked out a procedure that has worked fine on several subsequent surgeries.  Dr McGinn needed that procedure. 

Lastly...My mother took DES as a prenatal fertility drug.  This use was banned after five years because of severe birth defects. I beleive this was the first drug use actually banned in the US.  I mentioned two defects and she was upset because she needed to know.  The problem it's that those were just the start of the list.  She needed that information and I could not get it sitting in PA.  So, it was postponed.

I do not mean to blame Dr McGinn. 

Jen

Hi Jen

My heart goes out to you.The whole waiting game for something that you want and desire so much and then to have it postponed is very hard. I hope that everything works out and you can get all your ducks in a row for the next time, If there is any thing that I can help you with please feel free to pm me and I will do what I can. 

Big Warm Hug's
Lyndsey Marie

[Joi]

Sorry Jen!  I have had to deal with a medical history that includes cervical lumbar fusions.  My surgeon (Chettawut) has been extremely cautious and demanding RE: the medical records and clearances from my surgeons as well. I can't fault this.  Plus he is also taking my age into consideration (68 today).  All along the my path to GCS I've worried that something from my past medical history might interfere.  So far I'm OK with 5 wks. to go and counting. Wish things had turned out better for you.  I can't imagine how I'd feel if I ran into a stop sign at his point.
I pray that you'll get there soon.

Hugz,
Joi