I understand what Joseph said about being saved;
QuoteI turned to God with nothing left, and in doing so, rediscovered the Person who fulfills like nothing else.
However, I have experienced it from a spiritual/psychological point of view rather than a spiritual/religous one. I finally emptied myself of all of the garbage I was carrying and was filled with the spirit. In my case, however, the person wasn't "God", but myself.
I tore at the fabric of my psyche and pulled away the self hatred, the self doubt, and, the blinders that prevented me from knowing myself. I basically jetisoned the person who I thought I was and replaced it with the person who I used to be as a child and who I should be as an adult. The process was a hellish undertaking as many of you are aware.
But there is no religion in what I now know as God, though, perhaps ironically, I've joined a local church since. It is the result of getting my conscious self and my unconscious self aligned and communicating together the way they should be.
I believe in God. I believe in the power of the universe. I believe that it is the energy of the universe combined with the grace and complexity of the human mind that allows people to
believe in God.
God really is everywhere and in every
thing. God is a part of every bad person as well as every good person. God can't be blamed for the actions or inactions of people because God created the human mind and God allows that human mind to struggle in the same way that flies struggle against spiders and antelope struggle against lions or other predators. People struggle against the climate, against hunger, against disease, and even against thier own nature. People struggle as individuals, as families, and as communities, and so on. If it weren't for struggle, the human race would still be apes (which I would take as a blessing).
The struggle never ends. Even when a person finds thier true self and has passed through the biggest struggles of their lives, they still have more struggling to do. Having to be strong enough to overcome or to endure adversities is a gift that one can give to one's self and then use for the betterment of others.
My point is that God is not a myth. God is true and is with every single one of us. But God is not a fairy godmother whose job is to make everything better all the time. God is the same energies that holds this universe together while also trying to tear it apart. This may sound contrary, but that is the nature of God.
I apologize for being long winded and I have no intention of trying to convert anyone. I also hope that this post makes sense to someone else (if not me). I also hope I don't come across as crabby. This whole topic is a concept that really needs about 2 years and 2 million words to get across properly.