Depressed

[Asheylov]

I'm so depressed, sad and tied . The only think out of the whole week that was nice was meeting new people at the Alphabet soup support group on Tuesday.

So sad and  down I didn't even wanted to go to work today 😭😔

And now I have Christmas next week, reminds me how unhappy I am about haven't started HRT yet . 😭😭

Ashley

[Jacqueline]

Ashley,

Sorry to hear you are feeling so down. I too have been kind of  low and dark. I think it might help to get out and do something with people you trust. I know that can be hard but distractions are sometimes a good thing.

I wish you luck and love and acceptance.

With warmth,

Joanna

[SofiN]

*hugs both of you

I'm sorry to hear you aren't feeling very good right now. I recommend an immediate 1 hour bath!

Take some time to relax and just have some time for you away from the stress.

It will get better just hang in there.

[Dena]

The depression will pass. There is a point early in the transition where everything hits but noting is moving. It takes a few weeks to adjust to this and you start seeing progress in your transition. When you are past this point, the depression will fade. I hope you start seeing progress in your transition soon so you can put this behind you.

[Asheylov]

Thanks ,

Can't have a bath I don't have one.😭😔

Christmas is going to be hard ,

1- parents don't support me transitioning
2- my therapist, is holding it back. But it's only been 4 sessions .
Because he would like to talk more and down to the reason why I want to transition.
3- need to find a new job 😩😔

But thank you for the support.

Love Ashley

[Emjay]

Hugs Ashley,

It's hard I know, but just remember you're not alone and that you can overcome all of your obstacles. 

[Julie summers]

I exactly how your feeling. its rough but it will pass.
Hang in there hun it will get better 

[stephaniec]

you have an army of sisters

[Asheylov]

Thank you so much 😭😭😭😔😔

Iv stop having coffee my 3 day with out it. Mix in with my depression, makes it a lot harder 😖😔😭

I wish could curl up and cry. But I'm at work. 😔

Thank you all

Love Ashley

[Mariah]

Ashley, I know how depressing it can be not being on HRT yet. When I first went to start HRT the doctor that I was being referred to was taking forever, but I broke down and cried long before that point when they first wanted to send me froth away to see an Endo for HRT. Aimlessly walking home form a required annual training. I ended up dialing my trans aunt. I don't to this day know how that happened. Yet, I need to release and let go and share what was on my mind with her. It felt good too. The funny thing is in the end I flipped to the Endo farther away anyway. It was quicker at the rate the other office was going. How come the delay. Please feel free to share because it does help even with the depression. Hugs
Mariah.

[Asheylov]

Well the reason I don't know why, but he wanted to spend more time going threw my depression , because he said hormones would not help as much.

He did the the question about my child hood and then go stuck on my drepression, my last session he spent a lot of time going over questions he had done before. But he did start off the gender question but did not complete them before Christmas so I will have to go back to him or try a different one.

Also my other promblem is that I still live with my parents, and don't have a car yet of my own. That is one of my goals get a car.

I do want to transition but people at my support group this I'm still young .

Thanks

Love

Ashley