This Christmas and new year may bring interesting things....

[Amoré]

Merry Christmas every everybody!!! may you all have a wonderful day!

Well there may still be hope for me yet but I am afraid it will not be with my marriage working out. Life is pushing me in a direction I could never imagined. I met this really awesome guy online on a dating site I was absolutely terrified. This is my firts time actually looking into men and dating them.

He asked me after a week of chatting if we can chat on watsapp and I invited him. I told him soon after that I am transgender and he is accepting of it. He asked when am I planning to have the big surgery and I explained to him about the procedure with getting the letter for approval. I like the way he treats me and never felt anything like this before. It is awesome being treated like the person you really are. Rather than being grinded down to the ground. He sees me as me even though we did not meet yet I am falling head over heels for him. 

I love my wife dearly but I can't take the rejection and resentment anymore and all the emotional abuse. Even staying a man is not enough for her proving myself. I don't hate my male body actually I don't mind being male I just feel I will fit better as female in life and that it is more who I am.

I wanted to file for divorce online yesterday and I told her I can't do it she told me if I can't she will. I begged her this morning that we can try and fix things not only for us but for our child and she just shot me down. She is sort of pushing me away and making me look for love in other places.

I never imagined it will happen this early on!

I told him I am bussy transitioning and that I am not fully developed yet I am still in puberty and he asked me do I wear I bra I told him yes I actually do then he said I am a girl. He loves that I have a shoe fetish and like most men enjoy the sight of his girl in heels.

I don't know what to do is this Gods way of playing me? Is this lifes way of showing me where to go and giving me someone that will appreciate me for who I am what is going on?

Most girls would give everything to have a very very attractive I really promise you he is that attractive blond hair blue eye 6 foot angel man fall in love with her and he told me yesterday he is falling for me and I still want my wife back.

[suzifrommd]

I know it doesn't seem like it, but it may be a good thing that your marriage is dissolving sooner rather than later. As someone who suffered through months of uncertainty and further months of misery, I think it would have been better if we'd just ripped the band-aid off.

As for your online friend, please be aware that there are many, many, many men online who are not who they say they are. Some of them are so skilled at telling us what we want to hear, that even the savviest women can be taken in. Please don't let yourself become emotionally attached or dependent until you have gotten to know him in person.

[Amoré]

Thank you Suzi

I will look out for it I am very careful of them I don't trust him actually at this stage. I would like to get to know him better because he seems sweet and kind but you know how it goes.

I don't know what to do with this marriage at this stage! This Christmas is sort of heartbreaking not waking up to the one I love

[lostcharlie]

Amore, I wish you all the best in finding your path to true happiness in the new year. As Suzi said be safe. Treat yourself kindly.

[suzifrommd]

I don't know what to do with this marriage at this stage! This Christmas is sort of heartbreaking not waking up to the one I love

It's been 2 years and I'm still adjusting to waking up alone. Being alone has its benefits, but I also miss the steady presence in my life and the opportunity to share intimacy.

[Qrachel]

Happy Holidays Amore and enjoy the ride, while taking good care and being safe.  Here's to all you are and all you are not.

All the love of the holidays,

Rachel