Thank you both for your advice.
This didn't play out the way I imagined. I went to the local place to jam on Thursday and had a great time. I have never played better. When I was tearing my stuff down, another guitar player came up to me and said, "Some of us have been wondering...", and I'm thinking, gee, they want to know if I'm dating...or if I'm a dyke. Wrong. He hesitated then said, "well, you play amazing well and you have kind of big hands and some of us were wondering if you are really a guy". I turned and said, "you have got to be f@#king kidding", grabbed my stuff and left. He tried to backpedal away from what he's said, but the damage was done--in my head anyway.
This upset me on so many levels I don't know where to start. The obvious sexism is infuriating. It wasn't that I look like a guy, it's that I play well and have big hands. My physical stature is typical for a female so I don't think that was an issue. There was no certainty in his voice, he was fishing.
Then there is the simple rudeness of asking a woman that kind of question.
Then comes the worst issue of all. In some sense, it's true, at least that's the way they'll see it if I explain my situation. It doesn't matter that in my heart I've always been female. No one will understand it. I enjoyed feeling acceptance as a woman; I am not interested in being seen as a transsexual guitarist or some kind of freakshow. It has taken a long time to remove that F word from my own vocabulary. I refuse to be seen as a guy in drag. I just like to play but will my playing now be seen through that filter?
The final insult? The guy then asked me to have dinner with him!
WTF! How did men gain control of the world?
Quote from: Kimberly on January 10, 2006, 09:24:00 AM
> ... I feel the truth...
What? That you're a girl who had to grow up the hard way?
I like that, but as I implied above, it seems I'll be the only one who knows the truth.
Dawn