First step?!?!

[Patti]

Hi all, I am Suzi

Well maybe...

I am just starting to think that I am trans (MtF), and trying to explore and learn all that I can. My heart is fluttering just posting this. I am mid 40s, divorced with kids, and a girlfriend that I have not come out to. Partially because I am not sure about what is to come. I have decided, after reading this forum a bit for the past 2 days that I need to see someone to talk about it. I have had thoughts all my life, but at times they just go away for a while. For some unknown reason, this past week, they came back, and very strong. I have, in the past, and not so distant past, dressed up, and fantasized about being a woman. This week I feel like I am a woman, I want to walk like a woman, talk like a woman, feel like a woman. Its been hard keeping a lid on it.

Thats all for now, thanks for providing a place to learn, and connect.

[Ms Grace]

Hey Suzi

Welcome to Susan's Great to have you here - looking forward to seeing you around the forum.

Having a chat with a therapist is a good start but there is plenty of great info and sport to be found here too.

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Cheers

Grace

[Patti]

Thanks for the reply, I had already read the links (well Evelyn Wood Speed Reading style) for the terms of the forums.

I know there is a cross posting warning on there, would it be ok to take some of the info on this initial posting and whisk it away over to the mtF forum pages where it may get more attention?

[Cindy]

Hi Hon,

Welcome to the site.

Why not make a more extensive post instead in the MtF area?

[V M]

Hi Suzi 

Welcome to Susan's    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

[Laura_7]

Hello and welcome 

here are a few resources that could help you:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,202134.msg1798781.html#msg1798781

I'd say pick what you find helpful...


*hugs*

[Jacqueline]

Hi Suzi,

I read this and your other thread. I am 51 and was hit kind of like you were last year. I was not a "I knew it since I was 5" however, I did start borrowing underwear and clothes around 7 or 8. Continued cycling and purging till last year. I had a lot of other depressive symptoms, weird memory lapses, inability to recognize or connect with the face in the mirror.

There are many experiences that lead us to the same conclusions. The therapist you mentioned will be very helpful to sort through things(not really for saying, "oh yes, you are transgender" or the opposite).

Welcome and I hope you find the support you are looking for here. There are a lot of resources and some great folks.

I wish you love, support and acceptance.

With warmth,

Joanna

[Patti]

Have my first therapy appointment set. Now to do some homework beforehand!