So, in recent events, I moved out, but my problems are still around. Although without having to deal with the insults from my family, they continue on with my friends parents who I'm currently staying with. I could stay over at another persons place, but I'd feel I'd be intruding there and I'm not very fond of her father (or brother for that matter), but that's only an issue have having a place to sleep. My friends parents think that Emma (the other friend) needs to stop painting my nails, which is technically the first step I took about a month ago towards feeling better. On the other hand, I have to graduate this year and today was the worst day of them all. It wasn't because of the courses (although they are taking their fair tole on me), but because of my math class. There's a specific group of guys that like no more than to make someone their target for laughter. Before I never cared and just flew through my work like I normally do, but today they got everyone looking and laughing at me for some odd reason that I still don't know. Today it kind of got to me because I caught a bunch of them looking at me. School is just a pain. Besides that, I found out that Emma likes me, not on a friend basis if you know what I mean. This caused a lot of conflict today because she kissed me, but I'm already in a relationship with someone else is is trans like me (except they're going from FTM). Due to my basic morals, I had to tell them so I had fun dealing with that part (at least I was honest). Lastly involves my second half, who is currently on the other side of the country. We've lasted since February 3rd and I hope we make it to the summer because we planned on me moving down during that time. It really sucks right now because I can't even change my wardrobe yet because I don't feel comfortable going around buying feminine clothes with other people because I don't trust them the same. Not to mention I can't help him either because of the distance. Last year I wanted to set up an appointment to see a psychiatrist to see if they could at all and I did, except I canceled the appointment because I thought it would be a better choice to finish school (really wish I would have just re-scheduled). Do you think it would still be worth it to set up an appointment even if I was moving? Wouldn't they have to transfer everything and find another therapist or other kind of specialist? I'm just confused about everything and fell I'm trapped. What should I do? All I know is that I'm trans and everything else is spiraling out of control...
Rachel
