Transition and broken heart is hell!

[DinaBelgium]

Happy new years for you all,

I just want to say, i think love it doesnt exist in trans world.. Love only exist for hetero, gay and lesbian people .. Trans only exist for sex or for fill in hetero men fantasy

I talked like this by exprienced, i knew a guy from tinder and he was so in love with me ... He really loves me and care for me .. He said iam his dream woman. After 3 months i said im trans and he was shock .. Suddenly he just gone .. How come people love you so much and care for you so much and because im trans the love gone ... That was my fault, im not say it at the beginning that im trans ... I dont know why, i just affraid for loosing him .. He makes me happy and in loved .. I never been happy in my life ..  now what i have, i feel hell.. Broke inside, feel down, everytime i remembered our beautiful memories im sweating in the night and if i remember him sometimes i cant breathe and want throw up ... I love him so much.. He maked me so in love to him with everything he did

Before also i knew a guy i told him im trans from the beginning, i really love him and when the time for sex .. He did anal me and he said he doesnt feel anything and cant cum .. He said to me sorry, i think trans is not for me .. That was my world going down

with anti androgen almost 2 years, i have no sex desire anymore.. What i need is love and i feel it without love in my heart i feel empty and my life is  not interesting anymore
And in trans world hard to find love, most of all guys  they dont want relationship with trans

This kind of dilemma to me , anyone has the same exprience or same like what i have been through with anti androgen and hormons?

Dina

[Tessa James]

While I am very sorry to hear of your pain and loss I also know people who began and remain in loving relationships as transgender women and men.  I can only wish you a mended broken heart and the strength to keep looking.  It is not just being transgender or in transition, the world of love and romance is the stuff of legend, story and song since recorded time.   Some tragedy some divine.

i hope you will keep that feeling of love growing in your heart.  Someone out there has a hand that will fit neatly into yours.

[DinaBelgium]

Thank you Tessa,

was different before i used hormons, if somebody dont want with me with my condition.. Thats fine, iam not broke, sad and can accept it.. But with hormons it feels like i cant accept it.. Because i feel im a woman and it feels he throw me to garbage now already 2 weeks i still feel the pain .. I feel like i want to stop hormons to try to forget him and feel tired with these kind of sh*t .. But i try to survive now .. I eat the pain and go on with transition

[cheryl reeves]

Hang in their for love does exist in the trans world. I been married too my wife for 27 going on 28 yrs of marriage and we have 2 young adults who are now making their way in the world. My son is trans and has a hard time dealing with it even though it makes him uncomfortable.

[Rachel]

Last year I was in with a group of trans woman and we were rehearsing for a workshop at the PTHC. One of the woman leaned over and kissed the other sitting woman. I knew they roomed together but I did not know they were a couple. It felt so good to see them expressing their love. Love is there for us we need to be open and provide opportunity.

[DinaBelgium]

Thanks for responds ladies,

Iam affraid now, as far my exprienced .. I ever been contacts several times with a guy who like trans .. I felt i dont match with them, its like we have same emotion and ego .. With pure hetero guys, it feels so different .. Really different!
I will not give up for searching love in trans world, Thank You for give me courage for go on