What made you unhappy today? 7.0

[V M]

Really intense night terrors about committing suicide and a bunch of the stuff going on in the world

[Roses and Songs]

3 or 4 days ago I put new pictures of myself that I took last week on a thread for that purpose. All those who did before me got at least a few feedbacks but I didn't, not one so today I'm hurt and I regret posting them, useless.

[Kitty June]

Feeling like I'll never pass. Seeing that dude in the mirror. Hearing that low voice. What the hell am I thinking is the thought that's repeating in my head.
Who am I kidding.
Lots of internal negative feelings.
Transition sucks. Why can't you just listen to a self hypnosis tape and be done with it?

[roseyfox]

My voice my horrid voice the main thing that people will notice and will go from thinking i am female to male. It like i thought you were a girl till you talked. this sucks but all well.

[southprince]

Not knowing if my girlfriend will still accept me & want to be with me if I go ahead with my transition.

[V M]

Kind of unhappy but a bit more irked than anything 

Often when someone passes away some/all of their personal belongings are donated to the local thrift store unless otherwise claimed by a relative or close personal friend

Well, a friend of mine who kinda likes Asian things bought what they thought to be a small house plant planter of sorts at the local thrift store and came over to show it to me

They then proceeded to tell me that they had to clean it out real good because it was full of ashes 

I didn't have the heart to tell them what they had just done with someone's ashes and told them how beautiful the plant is

[FTMDiaries]

I've done two Prides this month (most recently two weeks ago) and my family always reacts badly whenever I do them: they alienate me and I wind up feeling isolated. It's as if they feel I don't deserve any happiness or self-esteem in my life, and as soon as I do anything to assert myself or try to improve my lot, they have to try to stamp all over it to keep me down. Their disgraceful behaviour has set off my Asperger's symptoms and has made me feel very withdrawn and unable (& unwilling) to communicate with anyone. All because I'm not able to understand how people are deliberately cruel to other people, and I don't have the social skills to defend myself against their abuse.

Usually, I just get angry at my family for treating me this way and they go down yet another notch in my estimation, but this time I found myself feeling very badly hurt. I was wondering why it had affected me as deeply as it has, and then I discovered the reason: Shark Week has decided to pay me an unwelcome visit, and on my ex's birthday no less. Progesterone makes me feel miserable, and for the last week or so I've been suffering its horrible effects without even realising.

So being trans not only gives my family a convenient reason to abuse me... it also gives me some messed-up hormones that make their abuse feel much worse than it needs to be.

[Devlyn]

Kind of unhappy but a bit more irked than anything 

Often when someone passes away some/all of their personal belongings are donated to the local thrift store unless otherwise claimed by a relative or close personal friend

Well, a friend of mine who kinda likes Asian things bought what they thought to be a small house plant planter of sorts at the local thrift store and came over to show it to me

They then proceeded to tell me that they had to clean it out real good because it was full of ashes 

I didn't have the heart to tell them what they had just done with someone's ashes and told them how beautiful the plant is

Just think how well the plant would have grown...<running away> 

[Atom]

We had a social worker turn up yesterday.

Turns out one of the staff at her former nursery took time out to go down to our local child services and complain they had proof I hit my daughter or handled her violently.

She had 6/7 bruises on her lower back caused by her using a slide there. Which they've said has been out of use for months.  As that's an outright lie, and I abhorre all violence towards children, extremely mad. We also pointed out at the start of the week she had bruising which occurred in the 6 hours she left us for their care.

Social worker dismissed the idea she had been hurt by me, so did a paediatrician. But they have to investigate and the nursery is now in the spotlight. It already lost its OFSTED rating for being inadequate, mainly around the supervision of children and training of staff.

I've responded by placing a Subject Access Request for all video footage of my daughters sessions (CCTV in every room) and all her paperwork, their observations etc.

Furious isnt the word, so I am now going to destroy this place.

[FTMDiaries]

A friend of mine has been made the victim of a transphobic hate crime which puts both him and his young kids at serious risk of harm.

A stranger has spread a false story on social media alleging that he attacked an elderly lady in his neighbourhood. They used his photo alongside a photo of some random elderly lady with facial injuries which they'd plucked from a totally unconnected foreign news article. They even found out his deadname & added that to the story, calling him a 'woman'. The post was up for several hours, during which time it was shared & commented on by hundreds of highly irate people - including people who recognised him because their kids go to the same school as his kids.

He's terrified. He got the post taken down but the damage has already been done. He has contacted the police, but they won't look into this until Friday and in the meantime, he's scared to show his face in public. And all through no fault of his own.

This is why I'm as stealth as possible. There are some crazy, vindictive people out there who would just love to mess up our lives simply because they have nothing better to do.

[Dee Marshall]

The fact that I post to this thread so much that when it recycled I became the starter.

The fact that I noticed how much I post in this thread and now I feel uncomfortable if I post anything here.

The fact that right now many of you are thinking "it's OK. If you need to post here than you need to."

The fact that I feel that I'm not worth your time.

[WarGrowlmon1990]

Another day, another time to get misgendered by the people that matter most to me... it hurts the most when it's somebody close to you doing it.

[Jenny07]

With all the nonsense going on at work and being there for everyone, no one is there for me to turn to.
Had a bad day yesterday as got to a breaking point.

[Kylo]

Just had someone dump their chair on my toes. Wasn't wearing shoes. Extremely pained smile and suppress urge to remark on clumsiness overload activated.

[V M]

Various things that are making me rather sad and upset that I can't really say or do much about other than trying to keep hope alive and hanging on in quiet desperation 

[WarGrowlmon1990]

Woke up feeling like that this morning. I've been having a hard time coping with all the negativity in my life and in the lives of people around the world too.

[Jenny07]

Work continues to be a nightmare. How much worse can it get?

So decide to get a new toaster today, my old one is just well old but works fine 20 years old plus.
Get a nice new one and plug it in and nothing, zilch???
Look online for reviews and issues and it seems all new toasters are just rubbish.

Warning to all don't by it as it is a waste of money. I know I will.
If everyone avoided it, perhaps things might change.

[V M]

Work continues to be a nightmare. How much worse can it get?

So decide to get a new toaster today, my old one is just well old but works fine 20 years old plus.
Get a nice new one and plug it in and nothing, zilch???
Look online for reviews and issues and it seems all new toasters are just rubbish.
Warning to all don't by it as it is a waste of money. I know I will.
If everyone avoided it, perhaps things might change.

Yeah sure, avoid it sounds a good idea

Maybe you can take it back for a refund or exchange, did you save the receipt? 

[WarGrowlmon1990]

I keep having to deal with people in my life who tell me they accept me, then tell me that everybody would be happier if I stayed closeted. I'm starting to think that they'll all be happier if I'm dead...

[Dee Marshall]

I've been playing ring around the rosey with Verizon for the past week. They sent me a DSL self install kit. I installed it and told them that the line is dead and I needed a tech. They agreed and scheduled one. Someone decided they knew better and cancelled the tech. Today was the third attempt and there was absolutely no charm involved. Unfortunately they and Optimum are my only options and we already gave up on Optimum.

And our cell tower isn't good so hot spots are spotty.

On the plus side, this is the first post I've had in this thread that wasn't about my marriage.