What made you unhappy today? 7.0

[Cindy]

Thinking about my mother who passed away in October....my one and only blood relative who was accepting/tolerating of me being trans. 

Hugs my brother.

I'm around for a few hours if you want to PM me.

Cindy

[Charlie Nicki]

A summary of my last 4 weeks before telling you what made me unhappy: After 4 months of coming out to everyone and starting HRT, my ex broke up with me which made me depressed and made me stop everything.

So we started talking again and I was contemplating the possibility of not transitioning and just experimenting with my look for now, like still letting my hair grow, trying to look a bit more androgynous. I am feeling I could be somewhere in the spectrum where I don't need to transition (if this is actually true or just a defense mechanism due to what happened, I still don't know). Anyways I was talking to him today and he said that he doesn't like long hair either. My heart sunk cuz it made me feel like there's nothing I can do, besides looking strictly masculine, that will make this work. I feel like I have to choose between doing something about my dysphoria and having a relationship.


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[Dee Marshall]

The worst thing you can do is force yourself to be different to please someone else, or so I believe.

Today is September 11. I was working in Manhattan that day. Enough said.

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April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!

Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.

They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!

Think outside the voice box!

[Charlie Nicki]

The worst thing you can do is force yourself to be different to please someone else, or so I believe.

You know what the saddest part is? I know that and I keep repeating myself that. But I'm feeling so sad and lost that I can't help it. Don't really have the strength at the moment to tell my fears to screw off and don't want to feel alone.

Today is September 11. I was working in Manhattan that day.

Sorry about that[emoji20]


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[Artesia]

Sister is having complications with her pregnancy.  She is having twins, first time mother.  She is in her mid to late 30's.  Her twins are not growing correctly, one is much smaller than the other, and apparently the blood is not pumping to the smaller of the two the way it should.  She has been hospitalized to maintain checks on the boys.  She is due in December, so a bit worried.

[Laurie]

That is indeed something to worry about Clair. I hope they all are okay when the time comes. Also keep in mind hospitals can work wonders in the NICUs these days. You would be surprised what they are able to do with at risk babies now.

Hugs,
  Laurie

[Laurie]

 My face itches.     day one in prep for electrolysis on the 18th, 20th, and 26th. That's right 3 one hour sessions in 8 days.  I hope my last estradiol increase does not make it hurt more like the last increase did.  I am not looking forward to it. I also have other appointments elsewhere, first voice on the 27th and  another therapy session on the 28th too.

With so many appointments it is almost a uggh plan.

Hugs,
   Laurie

[Jessica]

I bumped my freshly budded boob on a door jamb.  I yelped, then laughed.  I had been warned.
Yow, Jessica 🙆

[steph2.0]

I bumped my freshly budded boob on a door jamb.  I yelped, then laughed.  I had been warned.
Yow, Jessica [emoji134]

Yup, with ya there, Jessica. I got down on the floor to pull Rosie the Roomba out from under a table yesterday (she's not as smart as the Jetson's Rosie), and rolled over onto my chest. Yow, indeed! Shoulda known better. 🤦🏼‍♀️

Though, if cross-posting were allowed, this could also be put under the "What made you happy today" topic.

Stephanie

[steph2.0]

I bumped my freshly budded boob on a door jamb.  I yelped, then laughed.  I had been warned.
Yow, Jessica [emoji134]

Yup, with ya there, Jessica. I got down on the floor to pull Rosie the Roomba out from under a table yesterday (she's not as smart as the Jetson's Rosie), and rolled over onto my chest. Yow, indeed! Shoulda known better. 🤦🏼‍♀️

Though, if cross-posting were allowed, this could also be put under the "What made you happy today" topic.

Stephanie

[V M]

I bumped my freshly budded boob on a door jamb.  I yelped, then laughed.  I had been warned.
Yow, Jessica 🙆

Ah yes, nearly gave a deliver man a coronary when I swung the door open a few years ago    What can I say? I was exited about the package arriving

Must make way for new clearances 

[Thessa]

Since Friday I had a total of 14 hours of electrolysis. Especially today it did hurt a lot. Not looking forward for the next session planned in two weeks.

I'm asking myself why is there no other option, so many people want to get rid of hair all over their body and still no quicker option...

[Dee Marshall]

Since Friday I had a total of 14 hours of electrolysis. Especially today it did hurt a lot. Not looking forward for the next session planned in two weeks.

I'm asking myself why is there no other option, so many people want to get rid of hair all over their body and still no quicker option...

Nanomachines, tailored viruses? Any possibility I can think of requires tech we don't quite have yet. It would be really great if HRT could reprogram facial hair the way it does body hair, but no dice. I find this sadly humorous since one of my Endo team seems to think that it does. Well, it does but not as much as she expects.

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April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!

Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.

They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!

Think outside the voice box!

[Charlie Nicki]

I had too much to drink last Saturday and got into a big fight with my ex. I said horrible things and ended up crying: Needless to say I was super depressed on Sunday and still am today. I just hate to lose control like that, and alcohol makes things worse.

[Artesia]

Got word on my sister and her twins.  She has preeclampsia.  She has now been confined to the hospital until they are born.

Luckily her job, and the hospital, will allow her to work from her room.  Lucky for her, her work is all digital.

But now, I won't get to see her before the boys are born.

[Thessa]

Nanomachines, tailored viruses? Any possibility I can think of requires tech we don't quite have yet. It would be really great if HRT could reprogram facial hair the way it does body hair, but no dice. I find this sadly humorous since one of my Endo team seems to think that it does. Well, it does but not as much as she expects

Yes, something like this, gene therapy.
I would be an improvement to kill at least all the hairs that are zapped 100% not only the hairs in the right grow cycle.

Something quicker, inject, next hair, inject, next hair and so on... *just dreaming*

[Thessa]

I had too much to drink last Saturday and got into a big fight with my ex. I said horrible things and ended up crying: Needless to say I was super depressed on Sunday and still am today. I just hate to lose control like that, and alcohol makes things worse.

I don't speak to my EX at all because I know it would go that way without a drop of alcohol. Since I lost any respect for her I just try to be as low contact as possible and only in written form.

[Bari Jo]

This happened over the weekend, and I've told a couple people already.  I was at my electroligist having a good session, lots of banter.  My electroligist made the comment of "there's nothing sexier than a girl with a brain" directing this to me.  I totally took it the wrong way and had to fight back tears.  It was like the comment "she's got a great personality"  meaning not pretty, but has something to make up for it.  I still feel sad over it, even though I know she didn't mean it that way.  In my mind I immediately went to, I'll never be pretty and I'll never find anyone to accept me.  I had to ask her to stop and we talked about something else during the session.

[maksim]

My dad's always giving me a hard time about having all these girly interests if I'm going to transition, but I really couldn't care less. My interests are my interests. My favorite color is pink, I love stuffed animals and squishies and porcelain dolls, and I wear animal slippers around the house; it doesn't change my gender identity.

[Elis]

My dad's always giving me a hard time about having all these girly interests if I'm going to transition, but I really couldn't care less. My interests are my interests. My favorite color is pink, I love stuffed animals and squishies and porcelain dolls, and I wear animal slippers around the house; it doesn't change my gender identity.

Great to hear you're now more confident within your gender identity;  having read your earlier posts.
I'm a very fem trans man as well who has an ftm friend who is also very fem and cos plays as female manga characters. He's very good at it.

Feminine male solidarity