Thank you all
I do not have a doctor at the moment, I do not have a HRT script either... I have leftover meds from last time they were prescribed to me and have been considering restarting them. If I feel they help, I will arrange thru my therapist to get a new script. I have a HRT appointment coming up in March... with a doctor... but I guess I dont want to start anti-dep now if they will interfere with that starting in march... I guess Im just in such a dark place, I cant wait to start doing something.... thats it in a nutshell