Life is still super difficult, but some stuff has finally started falling into place:
- I had my one year T-niversary in January
I am now One year, Two months on T.
- My fabulous pansexual boyfriend and I passed our one year mark in September, so we're now one year and 5 months together, which is great.
- I had my IUD (contraception) out yesterday, which was a miserable experience, like a pap but 10x worse because it got me stabbed twice in the cervix with a giant needle, and I spent the rest of the day with a mad pain in my stomach and feeling like my insides were going to fall out. But! The IUD I had, released synthetic hormones that may have been messing with my T-levels, and should get better now
- I have almost everything I need to change my name legally. There is a ton of stuff that goes into changing you name here (fingerprinting, fee payments, original birth certificates, notorized things, etc.), it's absurd. But all I need is three more things, and they're being mailed to me, so I should get it sometime in early March.
- My birth province allows people to change the gender marker on their birth certificate and all you do is fill out a form, get a letter and a photocopy of their licence from your family doctor, and pay a fee. And I sent in my stuff to do that, but the credit card I put on the form got cancelled due to a screw-up at the bank and I was like DAMN because I thought I'd have to re-send in all my forms. Then a lady just called tonight and I gave her a different payment for the fee and now it's just going to be processed and I should receive my new snazzy birth certificate with a glorious 'M' gender marker on it in about a month *_*
- I FINALLY (after literally more than a year) got an appointment with the person who could write my letter to get top surgery. It only took one appointment and she's like YEH, and agreed to not only write my letter but
also to write one inclusive letter that supports not just top surgery but bottom surgery as well, so I wouldn't have to come back in for another appointment just to get another letter. I had that appointment in October, and the letter just finished processing and it's waiting at Mental Health for me to pick up, and it was faxed to my family doctor. Now all I have to do, is show up my doctor appointment with my family doctor tomorrow, and she can send out the forms to MSI (Canada's universal healthcare) to apply to funding. Because MSI funds a bunch of trans surgery (for FtM: masectomy, metedioplasty, hysto, oovectomy, phallo, that's all I can think of off the top of my head). They cover the entire cost of the surgery, plus some expenses for travel and accommodations because most of the surgeries are ones I would have to travel to another province for.
- But also I graduate college this year, in Spring - the end of April is my last day of classes, then I have a 5 week placement in an elementary school. Actual graduation is sometime in June. And in all my semesters so far, I've had an 85% average. And my Sociology/Psychology teacher is the coolest person I've ever met. My college is super good and accepting with my being trans. They all call me by name and proper pronoun and I can use the male bathroom and I'm on the college Student Association (like student council) and the Diversity Committee. It's kind of great. I'm hoping to get above an 85% average for this semester.
- I still don't have a beard
Or any facial hair at all. But my legs are like a tiny forest. And the hair on my arms and eyebrows are getting darker. But also back acne which I hate. But like, I asked my sister to buy me cool manly clothes for my birthday, and she asked me for my measurements and I was like OKAY. And the last time I measured myself it was like, 40in waist, 50in hips, which was before I started T. But now it's like, 38in waist, 38in hips. My hips went down over 10 inches o.o I was so pleased. My thighs are way smaller and my upper arms have much less fat on them. It's so nice.
I recently applied for a subsidy membership at the local YMCA (I am at a pretty high level of poverty) and if I get it, I'm going to start going there after school so I can work out my upper body and get some muscle.
But yeh.
I just wanted to share some positives with you guys
