I wish to offer greetings to everyone here at Susan's. I have been reading these forums for a few weeks now and decided it's time to finally post something.
My name is Amber and I am a 34 year old male living on the East coast of the US. I am married with 2 young children and a third on the way.
I recently stumbled upon the concept that I may be (or more accurately, probably am) transgender. I do not have the "classic narrative" of transgender. Tbh, this came as quite a shock to me. I do not have a strong recollection of events from my childhood due to it being a horrible experience that I would rather not think about. I do remember being naive or indifferent about societal gender expectation as a young child. I favored a pink blanket as a young child and remember wanting to get a She-Ra lunchbox for school. However, I also was a huge football fan and enjoyed playing with all manner of "boy" toys such as guns, He-man figures, cars, etc. I do recall being forced by my older sisters to play Barbie's and my little ponies with them, but it was mostly a shaming event for me so that I could get them to play with my toys with me. Beyond that I grew up typically consistent with expected male expectations.
I have on occasion in adulthood experimented with cross dressing. It was always brief and mostly an erotic fetish (or so I thought). My wife and I have been together for 9 years now and she is open to experimentation. We tried being intimate once while dressed a few years ago, but she didn't care for it, so it never happened again. Back in November I decided to begin dressing again and it opened the floodgate to a whole new level of things. I found myself with overwhelming desire to delve into the world of feminization and started seeing women with a sense of envy for their attributes.
I discussed this with my wife and she was incredibly supportive. Her response was "I just want you to be happy". So now we are slowly learning what this means for us and exploring our way into this new world. I'm not 100% sure where this leads, but I have a strong suspicion it will lead to HRT and social transition, but not SRS as I have no dysphoria regarding my bits. Sorry for the wall of text. Thank you in advance for all your support and sharing.
