Hi I'm Dawn. I use that name because I believe in keeping it simple, stupid. Don being my given name. I started playing dress up in kindergarten, I would choose the girls over the boys because they were more fun. They talked, played jacks and hop scotch. Boys played kickball. When I was about seven my mother started putting my sisters costumes on me. She made all of sisters costumes for her dance routines. Heck I even learned some ballet and tap. This was before I lost my coordination with a growth spurt around twelve. Not only would Mom put me in the costumes like some living mannequin. But she would also make up my face and tell me how pretty I was. This was the only praise I ever received from her and it was intoxicating. By twelve I was dressing whenever I found myself alone. By nineteen I would go to my sisters house to babysit. I would put the kids to sleep and then I would go to sisters bedroom and put on her clothes and make up. If I could have made the decision to transition at that time I would be talking about being a woman for forty years instead of being frustrated. I had a late arriving puberty as I was out of high school when my testicles dropped and I began having wet dreams. I thought I had cancer. Nobody had told me about the facts of life, other than don't get the girl pregnant. I finally had sex with the love of my life when I was 21. We had a great sex life, she was becoming a nurse. I was to become a SME for production/engineering systems. Then one day she caught me dressing up and six months later we were divorced at 27.Well that was interesting because now I lived alone and it gave me the opportunity to dress up every day. I'm sure at this time I was going to work with mascara and lipstick still showing on my face. I didn't really care. But nobody ever said anything. Things went along pretty normally. I got remarried in 84, had a son in 86 and a daughter in 89.I loved it because I became the nurturing one, feeding, changing poopy diapers. bathing, reading, homework. If there were one goal that I would have like to set it would be to be a women and have a baby. Oh yeah. I'm not real religious. But I prayed for boobs. years later I got them after taking Spiro for my CHF. I know my Christian friends would call this a miracle. Before they call me every other vile thing in the book. No don't compare me to a Kardashian but they are noticeable. I wish I could do the whole HRT thing but I am on too many heart medications. Women are lucky they can experience things that men cannot. For example, when my mother was killed by a drunk driver I could not allow myself to weep. I had to handle the arrangements and I never got to cry. Women find joy in little things like the color of your blouse, How your kids are doing in school, what you are going to make for dinner. Men talk sports and work. I want to be able to make eye contact with people like women do. I love small talk. Now i am a year younger that Caitlyn and that's still pretty old, but I am better looking. My friend Dee has invited me to her home in Vegas so I can be myself and have some fun for a few days. I've never been en femme in public before. I hope I don't chicken out. I hope you all find what you are looking for. We are not perverts by and large, yes there are some rotten apples like all segments of society but don't lump us all together. I will compare my ethics with any politician, and I will come out on top. Be true to yourselves.
