church and me being genderqueer

[MAXUK]

i have been supressing  my gender since av been going to a church that i like
am gender queer
before then i was confortable with my gender and i was out to my family
they now might think its a phase
i go to charismatic church
i was born female and i am mostly female at the moment but some times i dress male and sometimes  gender queer
but most of the time i cant get myself to look genderqueer i wear a binder sometimes but then i still look female because am obese i cant hide my body

This leave me feeling upset and likely to self injure ( but i havent for 2 months )
Unsure if i should tell people at the church one person that knows is the minsters wife and she is supportive

[KarlMars]

i have been supressing  my gender since av been going to a church that i like
am gender queer
before then i was confortable with my gender and i was out to my family
they now might think its a phase
i go to charismatic church
i was born female and i am mostly female at the moment but some times i dress male and sometimes  gender queer
but most of the time i cant get myself to look genderqueer i wear a binder sometimes but then i still look female because am obese i cant hide my body

This leave me feeling upset and likely to self injure ( but i havent for 2 months )
Unsure if i should tell people at the church one person that knows is the minsters wife and she is supportive

By a charismatic church, do you mean that they're very conservative as far as a dress code? I go to church dressed in male clothing and never said anything about gender identity (I'm pre T and appear female) and no one said anything about my male clothing. If I were you I would just wear what I wanted to church and if you face too much disapproval you can find a more progressive accepting church. Perhaps you could ask the minister's wife what she thinks the reaction of the congregation will be if you dress the way you want. You can get a nice pants suit that both  men and women wear. That's all I can think of.