Hi, Jessi73,
Well, never feel like you need to go under your rock. At least check under the rock before you sit on it. If you see a little white furry critter with the pink eyes under it, that would be my imaginary pet, her name is Clarabelle. Yeah, sometimes she gets a notion to go to wandering off.
*HURTING* I done that, too, along the way. The*hurting thing,* self destruction, are just as serious a problem as loneliness.* I have been there many times, especially during my adult years.
The best choice I could have ever made was leaving my ex from hell. I have always been a sensitive person, years before I even knew what TS meant, let alone entertaining any thoughts about transitioning. This I especially felt to a much deeper degree once I was on HRT. It is as though intuition is being second to none competition with my sensitivities. Now I do think these abilities are quite consistent, just at different levels of evolution in the human psyche.
Please don't you run off, trying to run away from yourself, and hide under your rock. That was one thing I couldn't do, to successfully run away from myself. "Nah!" It won't work because you cannot run away from yourself, but you can change your perspective on life. I will pray that your hurting will soon go it's way.
As for time, no problem, I am not moving soon, at least not that I am aware of. As for lending folks my shoulder to cry on, every now and again I meet a delightful person I wish I could take home and they could talk to me until the wee hours of the morning. She speaks my language and I hers.
Please feel free to drop a line here or PM at any time you wish.
