I am sure you get sick of these questions.....but I'm asking anyway.
In my 5Os now. Not,about to change anything, it's a lot easier, I,think, being a 6 foot tall female who is fairly masculine than a male who,is feminine, but it would explain a lot of my life.
Physical breakdown: I have no and never have had inner labia. My urethra is *in*the vaginal canal. I am 6 feet tall. I have, however, carried just one child to term, had severe hyperemisis, started bleeding for no reason during my 8 month exam. I was very small breasted before childbirth. My menopause came very early, age 42. I get cysts on my ovaries, though even at 52, and even though there is 0 estrogen in my system. ( I've been tested for estrogen only)
Psycho/Social : I was never a girly girl. I was always a tomboy, and always "odd". I have always gravitated and been gravitational to bisexual and homosexual people of all genders. I was my fathers "son" while my sisters worked inside with mother. I would rather build something, garden, farm, play music or other " masculine" pursuits than feminine ones.
Anecdotal: Family always acted like there was something to hide about me. I could list chapter and verse, but it would take too long. My parents are gone, my sisters don't communicate with me. The daughter I carried to term has several serious genetic and autoimmune disorders. All my sexual relationships have been with fairly effeminate men.
What I'm wondering is are there any forms of intersex where I could have been born with external male genitalia of some kind, and the plumbing was rerouted, causing my odd vaginal/vulval area, but had mostly functional internals...mostly because of the sketchy fertility I had and the very early menopause.
Again, it won't make a huge difference in how I live my life. It would just explain some thing about how it's gone too me.
