Hi,
I'd like to briefly introduce myself. I'm a mature T-girl (55 years of age), originally from the UK but currently living and working in SE Asia. Thank you for having me at Susan's place. At present, I have not yet "come out" regarding being transgendered to everyone (e.g. at work), though I am spending an increasing amount of time presenting myself in public as a woman. The reason for not fully coming out is part cowardice and part necessity, especially with regard to my employment.
I can't say that I felt "like a woman trapped in a man's body" as a child. Nor was I ever effeminate as a child or a young man, and didn't start crossdressing until my late teens, and even then it was only partial. However, and if this doesn't sound like a complete contradiction, I never really felt like a man either. Interestingly, for as far as I can remember, it was some genetic women who instinctively sensed that I had a deeply feminine nature and told me that I seemed very ladylike in my attitude and behaviour. The active desire to embrace the feminine, and to physically feminize myself, is something that has increased in intensity over the past two or three decades.
I reached a milestone this weekend when I commenced medically-supervised HRT treatment. I also reached a trivial milestone this weekend when I managed to pass a whole day presenting myself as a woman without anyone calling me "Sir". Of course, my joy was soon undone the following day when someone addressed me as "Sir" within ten minutes of being outside and clearly presenting myself as a woman. I guess some people just can't resist communicating to others just how smart they are and that no one is going to fool them.
Working to my advantage in my quest to feminize myself is that I have, by nature, a very slight feminine build: I have narrow shoulders, small hands, small feet, and no "manly" muscles. I am 172 cm (5 feet 8 inches) and weigh 68 kg (10 stones 9 pounds). But one price to pay for those slight advantages is that I have real issues with extreme body hair. If I didn't constantly do battle with my body (and facial) hair, I would be as hairy as a bear. I also have issues with my face, which I think is too big for a woman's. I am also bald (but shave off all remaining hair so at least I look like a mannequin !), and need to rely on wigs. I hope my HRT will at least help reduce the body hair, though I know it won't stop it completely. My age is also something that works against me, but as the oft-repeated cliche goes ...
Anyway, I feel excited and nervous about the future, but see it as a challenge that I will try my best to enjoy. I know some people who know me (especially males) are going to be shocked beyond belief when I finally do reveal the truth about myself. But I will cross (no pun intended, or maybe there's no pun at all) that bridge when I reach it.
Once again, thanks for having me here. I hope I can make some useful contribution. I also hope that I have not said anything that offends or irritates anyone in my introduction.
Debbie.
P.S. I'd like to use a picture of myself as an avatar, but I just can't figure out how to do it. When I try to edit my profile, I can't see any options to do this. Any help on this matter would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
