Try to avoid a seesaw pattern and listen to your heart.
You can identify as woman without doing female stuff all of the time.
Its possible you are sensitive to others expectations ... I'd say try to do what you feel makes your heart sing.
I'd say try to check your levels with your endo...
many endos strive for estrogen above 200 pg/ml and testosterone below 60 ng/dl.
If levels of estrogen are in the menopausal range for example, below 80, it can affect mood.
So it might help if estrogen is high enough.
Some endos additionally add bioidentical progesterone to help with mood. People react different, so you might ask for it.
What anti androgen are you on ? People on androcur sometimes report deep depressions.
The route of intake also plays a role. With sublingual estrogen intake, levels rise fast and drop hours later.
It might make for a menopausl like effect, which might afffect mood.
So for example adding one patch for steady levels, or splitting the daily dose in a few small doses spread throughout the day might help.
Injections might be another form to consider ... many people on weekly injections for example report good results.
Just talk it all through with your endo.
*hugs*
