not being on testostrone makes me sick?

[Midnightstar]

I don't know if its common but i feel like im insane.
Anyways, i used to look up transition pictures of other men because i wasn't on T and it would be fine i'd be happy for them and doubtful but hopeful for me.  Now knowing i am not on testosterone has been making me feel a light sickness and others pictures or being on T and speaking about it can trigger me to feel sick. i don't know if its a entire new level of dysphoira or what and i can't say its me being scared because i'm not scared.

[Laura_7]

You're not insane.

Many transgender people kind of crave the hormones of the gender they identify with.

There is a biological explanation for being transgender.
The brain develops at different times than the rest of the body so a mismatch is possible.
Many transgender people feel they are kind of wired for this, kind of expecting hormones of the other gender.

You will be on hormones soon, time will pass quickly.
And usually they start out with a low dose, so you have enough time to see how it makes you feel.

Well ... something to look forward to ... try to relax ... 
if it makes you sick can you pass your time differently ? Looking for clothing instead ? 


hugs

[Elis]

Definitely not insane; what you feel in the brain can affect how your body feels. Although I haven't experienced what you're experiencing. Does it feel like a physical kind of sick like when you have a stomach bug? Being pre T and seeing trans men who had been on T a long time; usually made me feel depressed and body dysphoric. Maybe you feel sick because as you have a male brain; you looking as those pics causes your brain to feel confused and your body to feel alien; as you have a different body to what your brain feels you should have. You hear some trans women say they feel disgusted by their parts; so they probably feel something similar to what you're feeling.