I don't want to transition

[Midnightstar]

I don't want to do it this transition i'm going to end up with that apartment with the things i'm needing
but nobody is ever sticking to my pronouns it's like this effort they put in always fades its a mask a disguise they're wearing so nobody can tell there not caring.  I don't want to play that game, i just want everything to stop.
Wonderful i'll have need but i'll never get where i feel comfortable they'll make it a struggle the entire way the entire time i'll always have something that's my fault.  People say i'm brave but i doubt i'm that brave i'm a person who couldn't even hold my ground.

[Elis]

I've been there; so have many other trans people. When I came out last year my dad completely ignored my pronouns and said some real crap about me. But there's wasn't any other choice than to see a gender therapist and get T. Otherwise I'd just carry on existing; carry on s/h. It's very hard to correct people. It doesn't mean you're any less of a trans person or not brave for not correcting them. You've made it this far in life; you've managed to survive 5 months into the year; you're doing great . Just take it one day/minute at a time.
Concentrate on seeing a gender therapist. I hated going but I knew each appointment I was closer to my dream. Which I know sounds kinda cheesy bit it's true. You can do this. You deserve this. You'd be a loss to the world if you didn't transition and have a chance at being happy.

[Midnightstar]

I've been there; so have many other trans people. When I came out last year my dad completely ignored my pronouns and said some real crap about me. But there's wasn't any other choice than to see a gender therapist and get T. Otherwise I'd just carry on existing; carry on s/h. It's very hard to correct people. It doesn't mean you're any less of a trans person or not brave for not correcting them. You've made it this far in life; you've managed to survive 5 months into the year; you're doing great . Just take it one day/minute at a time.
Concentrate on seeing a gender therapist. I hated going but I knew each appointment I was closer to my dream. Which I know sounds kinda cheesy bit it's true. You can do this. You deserve this. You'd be a loss to the world if you didn't transition and have a chance at being happy.

Iv'e been seeing my therapist for a while he is a grate guy can't wait to go back though i deferentially make the appointment's more often but the ride to get up there is costly and long. But eventually when i move i hope to be going to see him 2's in every two weeks if possible i don't know if i said that right...that sounded weird but i think i did anyways yea. I was really down when i wrote this but i'm doing much better today. Has it really been 5 months?  time passes like crazy.  Anyways, deferentially i won't be giving up any time soon, won't let myself.

[MeghanMe]

Hi Midnightstar! Sorry to come late to this... I'm glad you're feeling better. Pronouns are really hard, even for people who want to get them right. It *does* feel fake at first, but that's people learning. It sounds like your parents have tried at least a little bit. It's sad that it hurts so much when people slip up.

Glad you found a good therapist! Be well...